(5/24/22). This isn't my normal writing or throngs I normally write about. The reason is. I haven't been able to fully process any of my emotions. And it's just seems futile. To try to write about something but not knowing exactly what you're writing about.
There are many things in the workf that trigger me I can't always pinpoint what they are. I know things like sh,S.A., and Ed are usually a sore part for me. But when it's like a video about it. Sometimes I'm fine and other times I'm not. I haven't really experienced it in a book. Moreover a audio book. Because with audio books. Even though it's a book. It still feels real. There's this book I'm currently listening to called Solitare by Alice Osmen ( not even sure if I've spelled that right) well anyways. I don't want to spoil it. But I've you read it. I will make this clear for you. Charlie in the kitchen. I got to that part but I can't tell if I should listen. I do know that it discusses sh and eds. And I don't know what I should fo.
I can choose to go to the next chapter and hope ghat there's no continuation. Hope that I'm not missing any vial information. Or I choose to listen to it. And see where that takes me. I don't know what to do. I can't decide. Usually if something was triggering me. I would have someone to reach out to. If it was something outside of my control. But this is something I have will over. The will being if I will listen or not. I don't know how me spiraling will go over if I've caused it into myself. I think I might. And the next chapter will be my thoughts. Will that work. I don't know. If it gets to be too much I'll stop. Ok.
YOU ARE READING
I'm spiraling
Non-FictionHeavy trigger warning. These pieces are things that I've written during times of pure mania. Where I began to unravel and spiral. Many discuss feelings of loneliness. And suggestive content. Please do not read if any of this triggers you.
