(5/6/22) I'm so done with this shit. I'm tired of people. I'm tired of just being here. I'm so done with everything and everyone. Like what's the point anymore. No one seems to really care anymore. It's fucking stupid. People act so kind. They put on a kind face. But everyone knows that behind that mask people are complete assholes. I'm just tired. I want to go home and just stay there. I don't feel like talking to anyone. I just wanna stay by myself. Cause if I'm alone. There's less room for disappointment. Im slipping. Im spiraling. Im falling under. I don't know how to explain how I'm feeling. I just feel numb. I just need a break. And that's about it. I guess the best answer I can give someone. Is "I don't feel well". That's about it. That's all there is to say. I'm tired. And I don't feel well. There nothing more to say. It's getting harder to put on a smile. I look for attention but I just get ignored. It's like I'm invisible. It's only when I'm like this is when people actually care.
I'm fine. I'm doing fine.
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I'm spiraling
Non-FictionHeavy trigger warning. These pieces are things that I've written during times of pure mania. Where I began to unravel and spiral. Many discuss feelings of loneliness. And suggestive content. Please do not read if any of this triggers you.
