Changes || Jean Kirstein X Reader

Chapter 12

At home, I was lying down on my bed while Pakkun and Misty made me company. I turned off my phone since I didn't feel like talking to anyone.

I was still really confused as to why I was feeling so depressed about my argument with Jean. We've been arguing since we were kids, what makes this one fight so different?

Is it because he compared me to Mikasa? Or maybe because, deep down, I thought that maybe we could finally be friends?

"Why do I even care..." I muttered as I grabbed my phone and turned it on.

When I looked at the screen, I noticed that Connie sent me a text. It's weird that he didn't send me more than ten messages, it must be what I was thinking.

Connie: hey (y/n)
Connie: you there?

(Y/n): yeah sorry I
was taking a nap

Connie: Jean is mad
Connie: like really mad
Connie: he only
told me to ask you
what happened
Connie: I'm really
worried about him
but it's up to you
if you want to tell me

I sighed and thought for a while if whether I should or not tell him. I knew that Connie was able to keep a secret when it's important so I could trust him.

(Y/n): we fought
and got so angry that
ended up saying
hurtful things to
each other
(Y/n): it was just a
stupid fight but we
haven't talked
since then

Connie: is there
anything that
I can do?

(Y/n): i don't think so
(Y/n): we just need time

Connie: are you sure?
Connie: I've never seen
him like this

(Y/n): don't worry about it
(Y/n): I'll try my best
to make things go
back to normal

At this point, I wasn't sure if I was lying or not. Perhaps I was lying to myself into thinking that I could change this situation. But it seemed almost impossible, I've made too many mistakes.

I didn't go to school in the next day. I just couldn't face Jean so I skipped. I could just tell everyone that I wasn't feeling good and I'd be okay.

The second day came and I still didn't feel like going to school. Maybe I would just skip the whole week but I also didn't want to act like a pussy.

I decided to go the next day. I took something that gave me comfort so that it'd be easier for me to appear there. It had been a while since I took it to school, the last time being on my first and last day of my first highschool.

When I got there, I didn't see anyone from the group. In fact, I didn't see them all morning. Then, lunchtime came.

I felt like eating alone but I also wanted to hangout with the others. I was scared because my face still showed how hurt I was from a meaningless fight.

I gained courage and walked to our table. When everyone saw me, they all looked worried at me.

"Are you alright?" Mikasa spoke.

"Are you feeling better?" Armin asked.

"Everything alright?" Marco said.

I assured them that I was doing fine and lied, saying that I was just a bit sick and tired. Thankfully, Connie didn't tell them what happened.

He looked at me, concerned. I mouthed a 'thank you' and gave him a small smile. Jean was sitting next to him and refused to look at me.

After eating, Connie asked me to talk to him. We went somewhere private and made sure no one was near.