Falling

Alone

I was finally actually on my own for once.

It took long enough, right?

Kayla's POV
GOD, I AM SUCH A JERK.
I take every good thing in my life and toss it to the side. Suppose it weren't for all the assholes before; maybe I'd be different. Perhaps I wouldn't be someone's second choice.... Just maybe.

"Hey Siri, play Happily Ever After by He Is We."

Because I needed time to myself, and this song was exactly how I felt in the moment. Because tell me whether I end up, do I end up happy? I'm getting sick of everyone taking me for granted. It's time that changed. My kids don't deserve this; although I'd never let them see me upset, it's the principle of the matter.

Something has to give...

Facebook
It was a place to have fun and meet new people. I've some excellent friends of mine through there. One day I had a message from a guy named Matt. I almost forgot about this car accident I was in back in March of 2015.
I was with my friend Cory, his girlfriend, and my two oldest kids, and I was pregnant with my youngest son at the time. We were heading to Louisiana to visit a friend of mine. But on the way there, her son broke his arm, so I decided to turn back around. I had been driving for a long time. I was trying to find a rest stop, but of course, there were none.
I may have fallen asleep behind the wheel; I am unsure. But I remember a semi's wheels were in our lane. I straightened out, but then his wheels tapped mine, and we went off the side of the road. I remember it as it happened.

Everything went black.
But I could hear it all. My SUV went downhill and flipped three times, landing on its left side. I'm not sure of what happened next. But it went something like this;

I got out of my seat, trying to find my flip-flops, but I couldn't. I saw everyone else in the car, but I got myself out. At the same time, my friend Cory and his girlfriend got my kids out. I had crawled out the back window.

That's all I remember.
But that isn't what happened.

My friends had got the kids out and everything they could grab of their things. The whole time I thought I was out of the vehicle; I was unconscious or something else. I came to after I heard someone call my name, it was a voice I had never heard before, but I woke up. I didn't know what happened and I thought there was just rain on my head because it was raining. I stood up so they could see me from the passenger front window, and Cory was freaking out because my head was bleeding. He helped me out of the back of the SUV. And the police and ambulance were there within minutes. We were nine and a half hours away from home. My mom and my aunt came and picked us up. My car was a total loss; I lost everything I had.

But at least we were alive.

Back to Facebook,
I met Matt shortly after my accident. I would never give him the time of day or anyone for that matter. I was done with the back and forth, and I was scared to get hurt again. I would ignore him for weeks at a time, but he didn't seem to mind.
We hung out a few times, even with me being pregnant, and he would tell me about his ex-girlfriends. I thought that was weird because I didn't care about any of that. We started dating in September of 2015, and just like Shawn, he was a man in uniform.

GOD, I'm SUCH A SUCKER