Traitor|| Silco x Reader

XXV. Drowning

You wandered from the room down the silent hall, your brain all over the place from everything that had happened recently. There were so many instances where every individual involved got hurt in some way but Jinx. Jinx got fucked over the most, then followed Vi. Jinx hasn't even hit the ripe age of adulthood and has been through so much trauma. And that pained you because you promised yourself when you were all with Vander still that you would do anything in your power to protect them.

But you failed her, you failed Vander, Vi and Silco. There were many ways you could have prevents numerous instances. Your thoughts were interrupted by the sound of a door opening. Vander stepped out of Jinx's room and quietly closed the door.

"I just got her to go back to sleep" Vander spoke quietly as he released the door knob and turned his body to face you. "You doing okay?"

"I'm alright." You smiled softly as you glanced up at Vander "how did you know where to find us?"

"Only an idiot wouldn't be able to find you guys. I was the one who showed jinx the building. Thought she could use the area to test her grenades" Vander spoke as he stood off the the side. "I was headed to the Last drop if you wanted to join"

"Sure" you responded as Vander began to walk down the hall with you trailing behind him almost hiding behind his massive frame. The walk was short and quiet. Almost as if neither of you want to discuss the situation until you were at the bar. Vander unlocked the door to the empty bar and made his way to behind the counter. You took a seat on the stool on the opposing side of the counter.

"Want something to drink?"

"Hit me with one" you shook your head exhausted slightly. Vander slightly chuckled as he quickly poured you a glass of whiskey. He slid it to you, right into your hand. "Thanks" you took a sip and place the drink back down on the table. "I don't know what would've happened if you didn't come when you did"

"I'm glad I got there when I did" Vander spoke as he leaned against the counter with his drink in hand. "I knew of jinx's unstableness days ago. And I knew something like that was going to happen. She had been too timid and had isolated herself way more often than I thought she would"

"This was all my fault, I should've told Jinx of Vi before the thought of even telling Silco came to mind. I'm at shame for myself for putting Silco before Jinx when I told myself Jinx and Vi would always come first." You huffed as you took another big gulp and sulked your head refusing to look at Vander.

"Knock that off, you let your guard down. It happens. You can't entirely blame yourself either. Stop drowning in the past and worry about how you're gonna make it up them now. It's what I'm doing, it's what you need to be doing." Vander spoke as he took a drink. "And like you told me, they're grown up, we can't protect them forever. We can try our best but they're gonna have to fly themselves sooner or later."

"I'm drowning in my thoughts, Vander" you confessed. "Silco, then him selling me out to Salo. And then Jinx and then Vi and then.....I'm so torn" you placed your head into your palms. "He sold me over to Piltover. Salo. The man who ruined my life before it even began. The one thing I trusted both of you to keep and Silco used it to HIS advantage....."

You felt your mind begin to jog as it replayed the memories once you were turned over to Piltover. Your eyes began to fill with tears as you choked trying to hold back the tears. Your breathing increased as you were doing everything in your power not to cry.

"I'm so over my head for Silco, just as I was when we were younger but I cannot. Shake the fact of it all. " your voice cracked you broke into a small sob, your hand covered your face as the tears fire your hand.

"Hey. Hey." Vander spoke as he reached his hand over to rub your shoulder to try and comfort you. "It's gonna be okay, y/n. You aren't going back there ever again. I can promise you that." He spoke softly which softened your sobs.

"I want to trust him like i did but I'm so hesitant. Because you were right. He's changed. Of course he's still in there but there's an evil in him that's erupted from the hidden. You know Silco would have NEVER done that back then. Never would have even crossed his mind"

"He's likes this because of me, y/n. And that's the exact reason you hate me. Because of what I did to Silco, and you have every right to. He's not to blame, it's me." Vander huffed light as he stopped rubbing your shoulder and just rested his hand. "I changed him.... I was selfish, Had an anger in me that I unleashed and Silco was just the main target. "

"What happen to all of us?......." You questioned softly as you removed your face from your hand and glanced up to look at him.

"Life happened to us, y/n. We've been through stuff, learned from it." He spoke as he looked back at your noticing the tears straying down your cheeks. He removed his hand from your shoulder and brought his thumb to your cheeks wiping off the stray tears.

"I never hated you. I hated what you did but i could never really hate YOU. Even if I wanted to, I can't. We've been through too much for me just to take that one thing and have it make me hate you" you confessed as you sniffled. "I did everything I could to want to hate you. To make myself hate you. But you have a good heart Vander. It overpowers the bad in you by multiple laps. The bright of it all, we still have Silco. "

Vander looked at the countertop for moments before he looked back at you not even attempting to speak.