Right in Front of Me

the story of us

TW!!!! harry has another panic attack in this chapter.

I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us,
how I was losing my mind when I saw you here.
But you held your pride like you should've held me.
Oh, I'm scared to see the ending,
why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how,
I've never heard silence quite this loud.

2 weeks. It had been two weeks since Harry drunkenly told Draco he had feelings for him. And within those 2 weeks, Draco had not even looked in Harry's direction. Harry's heart was breaking into smaller pieces every day and he felt like throwing up every time he had to be where Draco was.

"I'm gonna kick his little Hufflepuff arse. I mean what a fucking tool!" Ron said, clearly just as mad as Harry. On top of ignoring Harry, Draco hadn't spoken to Ron or Neville either. And Harry wasn't sure how it was even possible to ignore someone who shares a dorm with you.

"I... I dunno." Harry said. Ron had this outburst at least once a day and so he was used to it by now.

"Have you tried to be the one going up to him, H?" Hermione said, putting her hand on his back.

"Yeah. Loads of times in the first couple days. He literally pretended like he couldn't hear me. I... I mean what the hell is that about?" He understood if Draco was confused... but to shut them all out like this? It just... He was broke out of his thoughts by Blaise sitting down next to him in the Great Hall.

"Er... why is Draco all over Millicent Bullstrode?" Harry's eyes practically popped out of his head when he looked over to the Slytherin table and saw some girl sitting on Draco's lap.

"Who the fuck is Millicent Bullstrode?" Harry said, a bit loudly. Blaise put a calming hand on Harry's back and pulled him closer.

"She is a Slytherin in my year. You met her at the party at my dad's. She didn't say much and it was later in the night so you probably just don't remember." Harry felt like his blood was boiling. Now he's dating some random Slytherin? Some girl he doesn't even know. "Mr. Malfoy had been talking about Draco and Millie being together since they were kids... I guess Draco finally gave in."

"He's taking orders from his father now?" Neville said. He was sitting next to Ron at the Gryffindor table. Ever since Draco had been ignoring them all, he'd been sitting with them at meals.

"I mean I honestly don't know anything about it." Blaise said, taking a bite of his breakfast. "But I don't see why else he would be all over her, he always talked about how much he hated her." Harry's stomach was turning in a bunch of different directions and he felt like he was going to be sick.

"H you should try to eat something." Hermione said. Harry pushed his plate away and stood up.

"I'm... I'm not hungry." Harry said, walking out of the Great Hall. He needed to get as far away from Draco as humanly possible. He wasn't paying attention and he smacked head first into Cedric.

"Harry!" Cedric said, smiling brightly. He noticed Harry's state and his smile faded, he motioned him to come sit over on a bench in the hall.

"You Ok?" Cedric asked him. "You look like someone just told you that you could never play Quidditch again." Harry smiled at that and looked up at Cedric.

"Yeah... Yeah sorry I'm Ok. Just dealing with some stuff. My life kind of sucks sometimes." Just then is when a group of Slytherins walked by, Draco in the midst.

"Oooh, it's Harry Potter, the Great One." One of them said, he didn't know his name.

"Don't you know he's the one who's going to vanquish The Dark Lord." Someone next to him said. They all laughed.