love, always

Chapter 12

12.

 

“Haley it’s a beautiful day and the sun is shining, so come and join me!”

Okay, I’m not even joking, that genuinely makes me want to be sick...

“Come and dance amongst the rainbows and the starlings that swoop past,”

Oh no please stop...

“And later we can sing under the stars...”

  Ohhhh...

“Nobody can ever tell you again to stop doing this and to stop doing that because, guess what?”

I don’t even want to know.

“It’s a free world! Life’s free and great and beautiful!”

What are you saying? Pleeeeaaaasse, I think I’m going to chuck up...

“Come with me Haley! Into the unknown, into the known, you can go anywhere you like...!”

Anywhere, as long as you’re not there.

“Come! Come with me! Together me and you!”

You know, this has made me want to stay here, to be honest with you...

“You’re reaching the most important, exciting, most free part of your life, you can do whatever, and it’s your choice! You can fall in love! You can dance all day! You can sing all night! Because Haley it’s a wonderful world!”

No it isn’t.

No it isn’t.

It isn’t a wonderful world. Because tell me this, Zan, where will my family be when I’m singing and dancing under the stars? They won’t be there with me will they? No. Do you know why? Because they’re dead. That’s why, they are no more. They cannot sing and dance under the stars, they cannot fall in love, they cannot discover the unknown, because they are dead. Diseased. No more. Gone. So while I’m dancing and singing and crap, they are down beneath the ground, trapped, stuck. How can I have fun and live my life now they’re gone? I can’t.

Could you?

I think not.

“Is it working Haley?”

Oh for crying out loud! Stop asking me questiioooonnss, going insane here!

“I’ve tried to explain to you how amazing life and the world is, so you wake up, but I suppose the memory of your family is holding you back is it?”