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// I Want To Take You To The Races //

Estella was at the Garrison working a shift with Grace, to Estella annoyance Grace vanished so the dark-haired girl dried her hands on  cloth from spilling rum only seconds ago and walked around hoping to find Grace before any more people came making it hard for Estella to listen to 23 men ask for alcohol
when she found Grace standing by a window. Estella stepped back hoping Grace would not see her, soon Grace moved to open the back door and threw the water out on the street nearly hitting...Thomas?!
what was she doing "I..I am so sorry Mr. Shelby," she said acting she did not just stand there for the past three minutes watching him, Estella sighed
"I'm Grace by the way," she said holding the bucket in her hand as he muttered "I know who you are"

"what's his name" she suddenly asked looking at the white horse that Thomas won from the Lee's
"he doesn't have a name," he said back until she slightly smiled saying a sweet "poor boy deserves a name" Thomas looked around before asking "you have something to say to me" he asked and the girl touched her skirt scared and but confident to ask " last time when you came in while I was singing, you said singing wasn't allowed, I'd like for there to be one night we can sing, Saturday night I'd think I would do everyone good,...Harry was too afraid to ask you so" she said until Thomas butted in "and you are not?" he asked looking into her eyes her blond hair was curled and laid on her shoulders while her hand still grasped the buckets handle
Estella stood there watching
"I am....but I love to sing," she said back making Estella roll her eyes, there was something wrong with Grace and she knew it
"you sound like one of those rich girls who come over from doubling for the races," he said Estella listening carefully
"do you like horses," he asked again as Estella watched as he walked around jumping on the house while asking another question since the blond did not answer "do you fancy earning some money," he asked sitting on the white horse he got from the Lee

as she watched grace asking him to earn money from what her breath stopped as he kept talking "dig out a nice dress, I wanna take you to the races" Thomas decided to take Grace to the Races, it hurt a lot Estella sighed a tear ran down her face, she quickly wiped it away as she rubbed her nose going back to work hoping to forget the words that just came out of Thomas Shelby's mouth

as she watched Grace come back with a sly smile on her face Estella looked down at her glass not looking up at her until Grace walked over to her "I have a question" as Estella looked up she saw Grace lean on the counter looking at her straight "where do you buy your dresses, I have no idea what shops are good and which I should not go into" she said laughing making Estella laugh bitterly to it

"two streets down there a woman who makes beautiful dresses for less money than anywhere, for what," asked Estella knowing exactly what was happening but wanting to hear it from her
"oh Tommy asked me to the Races what kinda color should I wear," she asked Grace smirked to herself knowing her plan worked, getting Thomas's attention and spreading the two lovebirds into two

"uh-uh a red or blue dress would look good on you," said Estella before turning her attention to the man who wanted one rum hoping the conversation was ended Estella walked away and kept working ignoring Grace's attempt to rub it into her face for the rest of the day

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Estella sat on the desk counting money as the door opened Thomas Shelby walked in, John kept yelling bets and money amount around until he spotted his older brother he held his shoulder smiling a little as he said "they're all here for Monaghan Boy" and Thomas smiled back  until his eyes found Estella who quickly looked down not wanting to meet his eyes, as he proceed to walk forward he heard his named being yelled by his aunt, he walked in and only after three seconds he stormed out with his coat in hand

Polly had told him Ada was pregnant with someone's child, he was gonna go nuts but Estella looked down writing the amount down before leaning back sighing
"you ok love," asked Arthur who had his hand on her shoulder she nodded as she grabbed his hand squishing them slightly "everything's great Arthur" she sighed

Well Monaghan boy lost Polly had an argument with Thomas, and Estella still hasn't talked a word with the man since the day in the garrison, every time she would see him walking over she would act busy or talk to somebody she wasn't ready to talk to him

unknown if she would cry or hit him till her arms would go weak, neither less break completely....
she did not want to talk to him, but she wanted to talk to him at the same time with an explanation, a story behind the words 'i want to take you to the races' but she was scared of herself or Thomas, of everybody judging her for being jealous  or sad about his decision

she laid in bed awake, watching the curtains flap around as the wind and rain created movements, the rain was loud and calming at the same time one hand rested under her cheeks while the other one was placed on her neck fiddling with the golden necklace Thomas gave to her long ago
the raindrops fell on the street creating mud and dirty puddles all around the city,
muffling
turning
breathing

Thomas had a nightmare, for the fact that Estella had her room next to Thomas's her hearing was even better than others, she got up walked outside her room, and stood in front of his room but
suddenly it stopped...