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// The Person She Spoke Hurtful Words To Was...Herself //

Estella sat on the kitchen table with Polly in the morning when John came in telling the news that Danny killed an Italian man on the streets, in fear....another episode in the middle of the streets, in the end, a man had to die
Estella sighed knowing this would not end well...

and she was right...

she sat in Thomas's room waiting for him until he burst through the door grabbing his coat but stopping when he saw the raven-haired girl sitting on his bed.
"where you off to," she asked simply, to what the man asked back "what are you doing here" she got up shrugging her shoulders before leaning against his desk "and I asked where you off to" she repeated to what he sighed "I gotta kill danny as an equality to the italians, we want no war simple as that," he said and Estella's eyes went wide walking over to him giving his shoulder a push "how could you do that! he is one of your best people, and loyal too! your mean and only care for yourself Thomas Shelby, your a mad man and-" as she screamed and yelled hitting his chest in return he grabbed her shoulder stopping her from hitting him and yelling, he said in a hushed tone "i won't kill him, the just have to think that he is dead love. I will 'kill' him and sent him off to London he will do some things for me there," he said and the girl sighed giving his chest one last slap after he let go of her
"ars" she sighed walking past him
he grabbed her wrist turning her around before pulling her in, his hands on her waist and their foreheads connected "you gotta trust me" he said breathing, she nodded and sighed "I do Thomas, I do" before they let go of each other and Thomas walked out ready to kill Danny

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so to get everything in place Danny is 'dead' and in London now, the boys went out for their yearly little family trip doing god knows what, and Estella has been stuck at the Garrison with grace since harry had the day off
"so Estella..." started grace as she poured a whiskey for one of the four men that sat in the Garrison, other than those it was completely empty,  Estella ripped her eyes from the very interesting view outside to the blond girl next to her
"Is there something between you and Mr.Shelby" she spoke his name like he was hers with venom and jealousy filled... Estella took her head that lay on her palm stating up straight and looked at the blond who took the coin from the man before turning towards  her "no why?" she answered crossing her arms, grace had to fight the urge to smirk, as a little smile was plastered on her face "oh nothing just assumed since I always see you together, and very close" she said through gritted teeth, Estella watched the woman with raised eyebrows, grace had something in her that put men but also woman in  a trance... was it her beauty, her beautiful blond curls that looked like out of a Hollywood theatre or her beautiful eyes that could wrap men around her finger, her beautiful clothes that laid perfectly around her sculpted body figure, thin legs, a slim waist

it intimidated  Estella a lot but, she kept it inside the pitiful look that she gave herself after grace turned around wondering what any man would see in her, her legs were thicker than graces her waist was small but bigger than hers, she wasn't blond like 90% of men wanted a woman to be, she looked uninteresting next to grace or any woman, no wonder no one ever wanted to go out with her
maybe it was because men were intimidated by her family the Shelbys or maybe because she was nothing special

seeing the woman at her workplace reminded her of that every day, she sighed shaking her head thinking of too much hatred to herself, it was easy for Estella to hate other people, one little thing and it was burned in her head never letting it go of what kinda wrong they did to her, but hating herself was easier than anything, no one could talk back since 'the person she spoke hurtful words to was...herself'

"Why are you so interested in me and Thomas," she asked and started taking her apron off since her shift will end soon "nothing, just curious" she shrugged and whipped the spilled liquor of the bar top "well my lovely grace a little tip from woman to woman... curiosity will get you killed one day," she said throwing the apron away and walking out of the pub towards the church where she decided to meet with Polly talking about certain things and maybe letting out some frustration about a certain blond barmaid

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she walked in seeing Polly light candle and someone standing beside her
"I heard you didn't make it to France," she said looking at him as she finished "inspector Campbell" and with that Polly turned her head towards the girl who just walked in, the man turned to her and now she knew who he was the chopper that was sent here for the guns

"ah how nice to have your presence here Estella..." he said hoping she would say her last name since no last name has been found on her file, no one knows what her last name is

not even herself
"can't say the same about you, Inspector," she said snappily a she stood next to Polly   the woman gave him a glare

I am soo sorry for not uploading, actually, I did not think anyone would read this but I guessed wrong, had a lot to do for school ,work, etc. so I was pretty busy...sorry again maybe I will upload another chapter later today who knows.... :)