Loosing game

Chapter 1

You made your way back to yours and Steve's apartment. You sat in your car and took a breath. You were nervous to see him after being in hiding for almost 8 months. It would be a lot for him to take in. You were alive and pregnant about to give birth to your first born, a baby girl.

You let yourself into the apartment and sat on the couch as you waited for him to come back. You sat for almost two hours watching tv and soon became sleepy. Half way into an episode of Law and Order you fell asleep.

"Y/N?" You hear a distant voice yell.

"James?" You sit up and rub your eyes.

"You're... you're alive!" He says looking at your very pregnant belly.

"I can explain but first where is Steve?" You ask standing to your feet.

"Y/N, have a seat," he takes your hand for a brief moment before you jerk it away.

You still haven't forgiven him for what he said to you. Because of your expertise in mind control and psychology you worked with Ayo to free Bucky from hydras brainwashing while he was in Wakanda. The two of you fell in love and even talked about getting married, hell you were practically engaged you were just waiting for a ring. That is until the "incident" you had gotten pregnant with his son. Bucky begged you to stay home and retire from missions until the pregnancy was over. But you insisted that you would be ok. During the mission you were injured you were thrown from a car after it blew up. It was a miracle that you survived. But sadly your baby didn't. When Bucky found out he was angry. To say he was livid would be an understatement. "what missions is so important that you had to put our unborn baby at risk. All you care about is yourself. You just have to be the hero and the center of attention don't you?" And then he stormed out of the hospital. You never saw him again until now.

"Y/N, Steve is dead," he sighed, "when he went to return the stones he stayed to be with Peggy. He thought you are dead. You can't blame him"

Tears flood your eyes as you wrap your arms around yourself in an attempt to comfort yourself. Bucky hesitates for a minute before getting up and sitting beside you. He puts one arm cautiously around you and when you don't reject his touch he pulls you into a hug. "I'm sorry Doll," he says as you rest your head in the crook of his neck. "Steve asked me during the battle to take care of you if he didn't make it. And I intend to keep that promise. I screwed up. I hurt you y/n. I care about you deeply. I want you to know that you won't be alone. I'll be with you as much or as little as you want. But just know if you don't want me around, I still intend to take care of you from afar."

"Thank you James," you said as you catch your breath. "I appreciate that. I know Steve would want his daughter to grow up with a father figure. If you're willing maybe you could be that for her?"  You hiccup as you hold the tears back.

"Of course. I will be as involved in little-"

"Sarah's, Sarah Grant" you smile.

"I'll be as involved in little Sarah's life as much as you want." He smiled as he brushed your hair out of your face. "Why don't you go get a changed of clothes? I've been sleeping in the guest room. I couldn't bring myself to changed the master yet. All your all's stuff is exactly like you left it."

"Thanks again," you stand to your feet and walk to the door of your master bedroom. You paused and take a deep breath before you push the door open and step inside.