the cabin || l.t✔

thirteen

time for some action i think ;)
hehe

April Rose
For our activity today, we had to use a kayak to get across the lake they had. He and I were silent after our events this morning. We just each had a paddle and we went across the lake in back before having a race with the rest of the class.

We definitely didn't win. We came 10th. I wasn't happy with that but I didn't care near the end. Again, in the cafeteria, I saw Zayn. I made the conversation about his crush trying to squeeze it out of him like a pimple.

He wouldn't budge though. Although I think I'm close.

We went back to the cabin because it was a Wednesday. I had a shower and brushed my teeth, making my way back to the cabin where Zayn say in my bed. "Zayn," I squeeze my hair into my towel.

"I need to get something off my chest," he breathes out, looking at me.

"Okay..." I nod, hanging my towel up. I silently sit down near my pillow while he inhaled a few times.

"I'm telling you who I like," he whispers.

"Really? Okay," I get excited.

"I'm not allowed to like her," he swallows, looking at the floor.

"You say that why?"

"Because she's a friend, one of my good ones," he whispers.

"I know,"

"She's blonde, green eyes...and in this room," he looks at me, I swear tears were in his eyes. I widen my eyes and my stomach dropped.

Oh my god.

"Oh," we're the only things I could say after he said that. I close my eyes. "Blonde hair," I tuck hair behind my ear. "Green eyes, makes you laugh all the time, tall but not taller than me," I think of what he said and how I didn't work this out before.

Oh my god. I can't speak. He told me he was like in love with this girl sand wanted to hook up with her because he had sex dreams about her. All those dreams were about me.

"I-Is everything you said true...about the-"

"Well I said it, didn't I?" he looks at me, his bottom lip quivering.

He's had sex dreams about us.

"And...you want to do that?"

He licks the inside of his cheek. My heart beats faster.

"You want to...kiss me?"

"I've had to stop myself," he drops his head. This actually breaks my heart more than anything. This breaks our number 1 rule; not catching feelings.

Then it hit me.

"Why were you late Monday and this morning?" I asks in whisper.

He swallows. "I think you know,"

I look away and swallow. I cant believe this, he was late to breakfast because he woke up hard from one of the dreams we were in. He tells me all this about her, on this trip, at school and it was me all along. I don't feel the same. He's my best friend so why would I have a crush on him?

He was actually in love with me.

I fold my lips in a line and drop my head. "Zayn-"

"Don't say anything, I know I'm breaking the most important rule and I get that you don't feel the same way because I've kept this in since we were sixteen, and not once have you shown that you feel the same way,"