the cabin || l.t✔

fourty three

April Rose - 5 days ago

On Zayn's bed, Perrie, Zayn and I sit, watching a movie. Zayn was in the middle because Perrie was cuddling up to him. It was only supposed to be Zayn and I but Zayn insisted that she came, and I didn't mind at first until now.

I was literally on the edge of the bed, about to fall off. They were whispering things which was making them snicker in a whisper and made me uncomfortable. I sigh through my nose and stare at the laptop screen.

I wonder what Louis' doing right now? I wish I was with him. I side eye them now kissing, Perrie's hand in his hair. I don't care about this anymore, they do it to often. I just take the laptop and put it on my lap.

I had small bed thing made up already, it was just a single air mattress with a blanket and my pillow but that was it. I was wearing a pink singlet and black pyjama shorts, sighing louder to make them near me so they know I'm here.

I turn my head to see Perrie straddling Zayn, his legs propped up. I feel my stomach get queasy all of a sudden and I bite my lip. I ignore it again, turning the volume up.

When I see Perrie's shirt coming up, I stare at the wall. Zayn didn't take it off, she did. I Zayn look at me ur I don't do anything, I stare at the screen. He then sits up and kisses Perrie which she pushes him down which makes me jump and now see their tongues down each other's throats

I take his laptop and side off the bed onto mine on the floor. I close the laptop and put it next to me on the floor, I get under the blanket and hear their lips smack.

It was about 11 and they've been pretty good most of the day. His parents went to sleep an hour ago, his sisters too. We were the only ones awake. I hear whispers and then shuffles, my eyes close.

It was silent for a few minutes, my hopes that Zayn or Perrie thought it was a good idea to stop before it turns into anything. I smile to myself with my eyes closed.

I hear a moan in a whisper, Zayn whispering a shh back. I open my eyes and have my back face them so I couldn't actually see them. I sigh silently and close my eyes again, bringing my knees up to my chest.

I hear Perrie softly inhale and Zayn inhaling slightly deeper then normal. I then hear her moan again, my eyes screwing shut. A small squeak of his bed then fills my ears and I open my eyes.

"Fuck," I hear one whisper in a moan. I feel my eyes fill with tears, I don't know why, it just does. I breathe shakily, wanting to go home now.

I can't do this, I've put up with them a lot. They make out all the time and I let them because I'm that person but this is too far. Zayn literally looked at me, knowing I was there and watched me lay down yet he doesn't care whatsoever.

I just want Louis. I miss him so much and I want him so bad. I've definitely gained feelings for him, because he's all I think about. I want him in more ways than one. I want him emotionally, physically and sexually because I miss him in all of those ways.

The squeak became more prominent to my ears, the soft gasps and moans, mostly coming from Perrie. I've noticed that boys aren't very audible in sex, it's mostly the girls.

I can't believe Zayn knew I was here, yet he still didn't care about the fact that Im here, he only cares about sex with Perrie. This isn't fair. Why did I ever agree not to talk to Louis. I shouldn't have done that because he's literally doing what he said I couldn't do. I gave him away and they literally couldn't wait y til I was gone or wasn't here to do that?

"Zayn," I hear her moan. I can't do this. I let tears silently slide down my cheek, dripping onto my pillow.  I sigh shakily silently, sniffing and wiping my eyes. I actually want to go home, I hate this.

"Shh," he says.

"She's asleep," she whispers. I roll my eyes.

"She's moving,"

"Zayn, you move in your sleep too,"

At least Zayn was trying to make an effort I guess.

"I feel bad, she wouldn't do this if it was the other way around," he whispers.

"Keep going, please?" she whispers. He sighs and starts again, I could hear it. I screw my eyes shut and hug my knee, putting the other hand over my ear, digging my head into the pillow.

They went in for a while, Perrie couldn't be quiet so I couldn't fall asleep, and I heard it all. I was crying near the end, leaving it silent for some reason, I was good at making it quiet.

"Stay there," he whispers, standing up. He leaves the room.

"I know you're awake," she says.

I don't answer, my lip quivering. "Here," Zayn whispers, coming in with a hand towel.

Ew.

"Thanks baby," she whispers back. I close my eyes, my eyes heavy that need sleep but couldn't. "You're messy,"

"I can use condoms I don't care, it's up to you because then you don't have to clean up all the time,"  he whispers.

"It's okay," she whispers. I peel my stinging eyes open, the lamp now on so I could see their shadows. He puts sweatpants on while she puts his shirt on, passing the towel to him which he leaves the room again. "I know Zayn's your best friend but...I'm his girlfriend so you have to share him around, you're just lucky I let him have a female best friend, you could be friends with benefits for all I know,"

Bitch.

I sniff. "You know we're not,"

"Why you crying?" she whispers, having a grin. I sit up and look at her, she was in her bra and Zayn's boxers.

"You couldn't wait?"

"Wait for what?" she shakes her head with a cheeky smile.

"You're not funny," I shake my head, wiping my eye.

"It wasn't just me who wanted it, it takes two,"

"Zayn tried to stop it, you're the one that wouldn't stop," I shake my head.

"I have needs," she says.

I don't answer but close my eyes again, laying back down. She snorts, snickering. Zayn walks back in, closing the door softly. He gets in bed again, cuddling Perrie. I sigh and finally hear the sounds of nothing.

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have you ever been in the same room as someone making out? i have, it's not cute