the one that got away | seongjoong (✓)

• XXVIII •

it didn't feel real to hongjoong that five years later, seonghwa had asked him out again. it felt so fake that the second seonghwa asked the question, hongjoong bursted into tears and just nodded over and over. seonghwa was quick to try and soothe the younger, but nothing seemed to work.

"hey... baby, let's go lay down, yeah? let's go..." seonghwa cooed, gently taking the boy's hands and guiding him to the room they had always stayed in.

hongjoong clung to seonghwa's side as he pulled the blankets down so they could get in, and he shakily got into the bed, not wanting to be far from seonghwa at all. the older laid down next to him, pulling him close and gently running his fingers through his hair.

"can you try to tell me how you're feeling right now?" seonghwa asked softly, staring into hongjoong's eyes.

"u-um... a-a bit overwhelmed? k-kind of... i-i don't know how to word it... m-my brain doesn't believe this is real..."

seonghwa nodded in understanding, continuing to play with the boy's hair a bit.

"is this okay?" seonghwa asked, flickering his eyes to where his fingers brushed hongjoong's hair.

"mhmm..."

"okay... is there anything else i can do to make you feel more comfortable?"

"j-just... don't leave?"

"okay... i can do that. everything's okay, yeah?"

hongjoong nodded slightly, trying his best to stop crying. he was so embarrassed that he had reacted like this, and yet he didn't entirely know what caused it. he felt like such a child, always needing to be taken care of.

seonghwa was quick to notice how hongjoong was mentally shutting down, despite the tears that continued to roll down his cheeks. he gently pressed a kiss to the younger's forehead, rubbing his side gently.

"hey... do you want me to help you relax or do you just want me here? either is fine by me, love."

"c-can you... c-can you h-help?"

"of course i can, baby... i just needed your permission first, i didn't want to make you uncomfortable."

hongjoong nodded, turning over so that seonghwa could help him. the older smiled small and kissed gently down hongjoong's neck, letting his lips linger over each little spot his kissed. hongjoong was quick to begin calming down at this simple action, but his body still shook slightly, to which seonghwa gently started to rub the boy's sides. as hongjoong began to relax, the older massaged his lower back with his thumbs, relieving some of the tension that hongjoong was feeling.

"how are you doing?" seonghwa asked in a whisper, kissing hongjoong's neck again.

"g-good... still shaky, but good..."

"okay... do you want me to keep going or do you want me to just hold you?"

"e-either... i-i don't know..."

"that's okay, bub. i'm going to stop for now and just hold you, but if you need me to go back to what i was doing you let me know and i will," seonghwa said softly, his voice calming to hongjoong.

hongjoong only nodded in response to seonghwa's words, allowing the older to wrap his arms around him and pull him close so that his back was against seonghwa's chest. they laid together in silence for a while, hongjoong closing his eyes a bit to center himself and continue to calm down. seonghwa just stared at the wall in front of him, wondering if he had done something to trigger hongjoong's reaction to the older asking him out.

soon, seonghwa began to miss the feeling of their lips together, sick of the thoughts running through his head. he began to kiss down hongjoong's neck, stopping and leaving love bites with every other kiss. hongjoong let out soft moans at the feeling, his entire body relaxing at how gentle seonghwa was being. it wasn't long before hongjoong turned around, looking at seonghwa with a pout.

"how dare you give me a boner when you just asked me to be yours?!" he whined.

seonghwa chuckled, pressing a kiss to the boy's forehead.

"i'm sorry love, i'm sorry... i just needed to kiss you."

"why there, though?" hongjoong whined again, his pout growing.

"i didn't want to bother you, baby... i'm sorry," seonghwa cooed, cupping hongjoong's cheek.

"just kiss me, idiot," hongjoong demanded, rolling his eyes.

seonghwa chuckled, tilting hongjoong's chin up and pressing their lips together. they kissed lovingly, holding onto each other until they were out of breath. after that, they just laid staring at each other, smiling small.

hongjoong was the first to do anything, cupping seonghwa's cheek gently.

"i-i'm sorry that i got so overwhelmed and such... i-i just... after us being apart for so long, it didn't feel real and the fact that it was overwhelmed me."

"you don't have to be sorry, love... i'm just happy you're okay. i was worried about you."

"i'm happy to be here right now... i'm happy to finally be yours again... it just feels so surreal."

"i'm just really glad that we found each other again... whether or not we had gotten back together, your presence in my life has always been so important to me and i really missed it."

hongjoong smiled a bit, squeezing the older's hand.

"you're my one and only, joong. and you forever will be."

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had to take a little break from things to get settled, but i'm back now! :) this is a bit of a short chapter but i'm already working on the next one so stay tuned!!!

sotd: rock with you - svt