Secret Love Song - Ben Chilwell

Sixty One.

As Ashley sat in the spare room upstairs, pretending she had gone to take a shower just to have five minutes alone to herself, contemplating her life quietly. Ashley couldn't help but pick up the guitar that she knew she would need over the next few days, the only way she knew how to release her emotions into the world, strumming the chords of a song she knew all too well.

You used to tell me that you loved me once, what happened, what happened, where is all of this coming from, what happened, what happened.

But she was oblivious to her friends stood at the door, trying to be as quiet as they could, all of them gathered around the small doorway just listening to her sing, listening to her release her emotions into the world, something that she knew she would do more often over the course of the weeks she planned to stay here.

We used to never go to bed angry, but it's all we ever do lately, and you're turning away like you hate me, do you hate me, do you hate me oh
You, can take this heart, heal it or break it all apart, this isn't fear, love me or leave me here, oh, oh

As Ashley sang, strumming the guys is a little harder than she needed to, she couldn't help but try to choke back the tears that threatened to fall.
And as Ben watched her, her realised how broken she really was, how much she was torn between her life she had to live and the life that she wanted to live.

"I feel like we shouldn't be watching this" Mason whispered, as he ran a hand down his face, as Mia looked up at her fiancée, realising the secret she was hiding from him, knowing they'd never had secrets before, knowing that if she told him the information she knew he would bend over backwards to ensure that Jordan didn't step another foot closer to Ashley, that whatever contract or rules they had were burned three times over.

"What do you know?" Mason whispered, as Mia shook her head, her eyes looking at Ben who was looking with adoration at the girl strumming the guitar, her voice softly flowing through the room into the hallway, as Mason pulled Mia with him to the spare room that they would be staying in for the next week. "What do you know?" Mason mumbled, as Mia shook her head. "It ain't my place to say" Mia whispered, as Mason shook his head, any form a smile falling from his face. "We always promised no secrets" Mason muttered, as he pushed past Mia slightly, walking back downstairs to the lounge, Mia sighing to herself, as she shook her head at Amber who shot her a questioning glance.

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JackGrealish replied
Doing my dirty here bro, I look awful
➡️BenChilwell - it's the diverted traffic sign for me
➡️JackGrealish - If this is payback, you win.

AmbsBailey replied
He deffo glowed up after getting with me

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Mason stood in the living room of Ambers and Jacks, a bottle of beer in his hand as he began to swig it back, until the bottle was empty, as he reached for another, Ben placing his hand on Masons shoulder, encouraging him to stop.

"Nah, fuck off mate" Mason mumbled, as Declan then took the beer from his best friends hand, holding it away from him. "You've had enough" Declan mumbled, as Mason rolled his eyes.

"Mias keeping something from me, we promised no secrets" Mason muttered, as he ran a hand through his hair, tugging at the ends slightly. "Because it isn't her place to say anything" Amber muttered, as she took a sip from the wine glass, looking to the stairs, knowing that one of her friends was feeling sorry for themselves in one room, and the other was singing her heart out to no one, and it was only half a day into isolating together.

"Then who's place is it!" Mason exclaimed, as he threw his hands in the air, as Jack raised an eyebrow, as Amber looked at Ben with a small smile, as Ben shook his head looking down at the ground.

"It's mine, and once this secret it out, I can't control what happens" Ashley whispered, as she stood at the bottom of the stairs, leaning against Mia who looked just as upset as the younger girl did.

"Ash you can trust me with anything" Mason whispered, as Ashley nodded her head. "I know I can, I trust everyone in this room with everything" Ashley whispered, as she looked around the room with a small smile on her face. "And when the time is right I will tell you, I promise to tell you, but please don't let it effect your relationship with Mia" Ashley whispered, as Mason looked at his fiancée who looked like she had just been told that she couldn't wear the heels she wanted to on a night out.

"Oh come here" Mason whispered, as he walked over, pulling his fiancée into a hug. "I love you so much" Mason whispered, as Mia leaned her head up to connect their lips together, as Declan groaned. "Go get a room" Declan mumbled, as Ben laughed. "Oh we have a room" Mia smiled, as she looked at Mason, Ashley stepping away from them awkwardly.

"But Ash, when's the time going to be right?" Mason whispered, as Ashley shrugged her shoulders. "I have no idea, no idea at all" Ashley mumbled, as she looked down at the phone in her hand that began to vibrate from another group chat, being spammed by Leah and Skye, as she opened the messages, her eyes scanning over the messages, as she held a small smile on her face, laughing slightly as she locked her phone again.
"Are we getting drunk or not?" Ashley smiled, as she placed herself down on the sofa, Ben sitting down next to her, as he gave her a quizzical look, before Ashley shook her head, but leaned her head on Bens shoulder, smiling to herself.

I don't wanna live love this way, I don't wanna hide us away, I wonder if it ever will change, I'm living for that day, someday..

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