Secret Love Song - Ben Chilwell

One Hundred and Thirty Two.

January 18th 2021

"Nah, you guys wanna see how Jack talks to Skye, it's so bloody cute" Amber gushed, as she sipped on her iced tea, where as Mia opted for the tall glass of wine, as she watched some tv show in the background.

"I wish Mase spoke to me how Jack speaks to Skye" Mia mumbled, as Mason raised an eyebrow from next to her, smirking at her slightly. "What's got you so happy?" Mia questioned with a smile, as Mason shook his head. "You're lucky I love you mush" Mason chuckled, as he kissed the top of her forehead, as Jack come into the camera screen of Amber.

"Are you okay if I take Skye for a run?" Jack murmured into Ambers ear, as Amber turned to look at her fiancée. "Of course, if you don't mind-" Amber started, but Jacks belly laugh cut her off with a smile. "Them chocolate flake things, I'll get ya some" Jack smiled, as he pressed his lips to Ambers briefly before ushering a goodbye to the zoom call.

"Ash, you're fairly quiet" Mia stated, as Ashley drew herself from the day dream she was dreaming of and smiled at the camera. "Nah, I'm okay" Ashley smiled, as Bens fingers ran up and down her arm, as he flicked through Instagram. "Obviously gagged and tied Benjamin" Mason chuckled, as Amber and Mia joined in laughing.

"Do you know how wrong that sounds" Declan stated, as the girls began to laugh at him, nodding their heads. "I mean if that's what you're into" Declan stated, only this time much more quieter, his voice barely above a whisper.

"When do you think we will be allowed to go out drinking again?" Mia whined, as Amber shook her head. "I've always assumed you was an alcoholic" Amber teased, as Mia flipped her off. "Yeah, Yeah, need it living with him" Mia smirked, as Mason shook his head.

"Nah, I ain't that bad you know" Mason muttered, as Ashley rolled her eyes. "Bens the worst to live with" Ashley stated, but before she could realise what she had said out loud, she knew the look that she was receiving, she could feel his eyes on her.

"I'm not the one who insists on trying different cleaning brands that literally smell like a cats litter tray" Ben scolded, as Ashley rolled her eyes. "Oh yeah, because clearly if I didn't move in for lockdown you would happily let your dishes grow bacteria" Ashley retorted back.

"Jacks calling me, one minute guys" Amber smiled, but as soon as Mia and Declan's cameras left the zoom call it was clear they were just avoiding the situation in front of them.

"I'm not that bad to live with am I?" Ben questioned, as Ashley shook her head sighing. "No" Ashley stated, as Ben raised an eyebrow at her. "No you're not that bad to live with" Ashley stated, but it was out in the open now, she might as well continue where this was conversation was heading.

"It wouldn't be that bad if you just picked your boots up though" Ashley grumbled as Ben rolled his eyes at her. "And don't roll your eyes at me" Ashley huffed, as she threw the tea towel down on the side in the kitchen. "Are we actually arguing over me leaving my shoes in the hallway?" Ben chuckled, as Ashley shook her head.

"I'm tired, forget it, I apologise" Ashley stated, as she walked past Ben and sat in the lounge, as Ben stood shaking his head in the kitchen, trying to rack his brain thinking of something he could of done to annoy Ashley previously to leaving his trainers in the hallway.

"There's something going on, so you might as well talk to me about it" Ben stated, as he sat on the arm of the sofa, resting his own arm against the back of the sofa, his fingers brushing against Ashley's shoulder briefly.

"There's nothing going on" Ashley stated, as she smiled at Ben. "I'm just a little tired, anyway, don't you have some zoom meeting to be on" Ashley smiled, as Bens eyes grew wide as he looked down and realised the time on his watch. "What would I do without you" Ben mumbled, as he pressed his lips to the top of Ashley's head, as his hand softly brushed through her curls before he swiftly ran up the stairs to the bedroom that was Bens home made gym during lockdown.

But as Ashley sat there with Oscar sat close to her feet, she couldn't help but look down at her phone in her hand, as she unlocked it with her passcode, and Instagram loaded back up, seeing Bens comments on photos she wish she hadn't seen.

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"I miss you guys" Ashley mumbled, as she saw her two old band mates on the three way FaceTime call, all of them looking a lot more refreshed than they had a few weeks ago.

"We miss you too, but the biggest question is how is the love life? We've seen the Instagram stories" Leah teased, as she caressed her every growing bump. Ashley couldn't help but giggle a little, but shook her head as the smile fell from her face. "It isn't the best at the moment, we're arguing over little things" Ashley replied, as Skye nodded her head. "That's normal though Ash" Skye sympathised.

"I know, I know" Ashley replied, as she played with the lose strings of her cardigan. "Anyway, I've been writing" Ashley smiled, as the girls beamed at her. "And I'm really happy about what I have to work with" Ashley continued.

"You know, one day we will be back on stage together" Skye smirked, as Leah nodded her head. "It'll come quicker than anyones expecting it" Leah smiled, as Ashley took a turn in nodding her head. "I can't wait" Ashley smiled.

But then the notification come through on her phone, a notification she completely forgot she had subscribed to.

"Ash, what's up?" Leah questioned, as Ashley pulled the notification down, opening Instagram up on her phone, as her eyes scanned the comments, the tears lining her eyes.

"I think Ben's cheating on me" Ashley mumbled.