DEC 17 - minsung

01.30

january 30,

hi. days feel so long. am i living slowly? is everything else living at a faster pace as i am? why can't i catch up?

chan has been calling me these past couple days after i snapped at him. i don't really know why i did it. he didn't do anything wrong. let me set the scene for you:

chan had texted me after work to come to his studio. being chan, the text was sent at 5am. unfortunately for me, i did not sleep early. it was a friday! i wanted to binge watch some stupid series with the cheesy and same plot as every show to exist. one thing chan had forgotten to mention was that he was picking me up;

at 8 in the morning.

why so early you ask? to meet his OTHER friend! like i cared for that! i didn't need another person in my life to know i exist. his name is changbin. had a little undercut and everything.

now i was running on three hours of sleep, hairs a mess, clothes wrinkled, and dealing with chan's super bubbly personality. how does he not sleep and still act like he drank five cups of coffee with three expresso shots each? he's crazy, that man.

he took us to a restaurant to eat. he payed for everything. why wouldn't he? he offered. and finally at 9 pm, he took us to the studio.

it was exhausting. changbin left shortly after for a reason i can't remember right now. chan played all these songs, asking what i thought about each of them. it was like a whole album.

"min what about this? i wanted to try something with this rock concept. i was playing around with this keyboard and it had this cool funky feature and i wanted to add it to this. what do you think? the melody can go like—"

he went on and on and i couldn't stand the ringing in my ears and the nails poking every inch of my head.

i cut him off and told him i didn't care.

i also said everything he made would always be good but i don't think it came out in an nice way. it's still a little blurry. but after that he took me home and it was silence since then.

until he left voicemails and texts telling me i could talk to him.

talk to him.

he wasn't mad.

he should've been.

maybe he will be on december 17.