DEC 17 - minsung

09.21

september 21,

it's been a while. i guess you can say i was busy; busy with a lot of things to write almost a month later. the most anticipated date is near. i've forgotten about it.

i wanted to forget about it.

i don't want to think about it anymore. it's been on my mind this whole year until the only thing i could think about is him.

i cant wait for december 17 to come just how i can't wait to see him for another day. we had that one talk he's been anticipating for months on.

what is on december 17?

should i tell this book? write it down officially? you might be surprised to find out. actually, probably not, i don't think i was good at hiding it.

i'll keep it between him and me.

he didn't see it coming though. he was the only one reading this.

i'll never forget your face when i told you what the big day was. it made me feel sad. it made me hate myself. i felt so angry at me. i couldn't stop thinking about how i told you the one thing only i should've known. you look so fragile and harmless, i couldn't stand to think i almost hurt you.

i felt like i hurt you.

i never want to do that to you again.

i cant make you feel like that again.

forget about december 17.