DEC 17 - minsung

02.04

february 4,

third entry down and it's already hard to keep it up. not a surprise!! i never pull through with my plans these days. it's been hard and i just don't wanna do it anymore.

i need keep this going though.

that's something you'd never hear me say. in my 20 years of life, i've never been this determined. be proud!!

chan's still calling me. i thought he'd stop by now. he really is a great guy. i'm sad he doesn't have someone special. i think he deserves it.

we all need someone special in our life.

i haven't been COMPLETELY ignoring him. i send a couple dry texts here and there. maybe call him back if i'm feeling good.

maybe that's why he hasn't stopped checking up on me.

i'd say i'm okay but ive been so bored. i need something spontaneous to happen.

the big day is on december 17.