DEC 17 - minsung

04.21

april 21,

what am i doing? jisung tried texting me again. there were an endless amount of apologies. i cant forgive him. he broke my trust.

there's a part of me eating away at my skin though. something is telling me to forgive him. something in me wants to forgive him. but why should i? i played my cards with him and he ended up messing the whole thing up.

my consciousness won't let me rest until i do something about him.

'minho i'm sorry i read your diary.'

'please talk to me.'

'minho i know i'm stupid.'

'i shouldn't have done what i did.'

'i'm so ashamed i invaded your privacy.'

'i broke your trust and i'll do whatever it take it get it back.'

not so perfect now huh, han jisung?

han jisung. so perfect! the most beautiful person! the most talented! the all rounder! the most charming!

it was all a scam. you are so good at making people think of you like that. how do you do it? how do you keep up that image and only let people see that side of you? is it tiring? it must be so exhausting acting like someone you're not.

you did let it slip right in front of my eyes.

i wouldn't have to act on december 17.