DEC 17 - minsung

05.07

may 7,

it's getting so hard to keep this up. i don't know why. i hope jisung is thinking of me. he was the picture perfect person. you can feel his love with every word he spoke.

chan told me it's rare to find someone like that— rare to feel that with someone. i never believed him. how are you able to FEEL words, right? words are just sounds we taught ourselves be familiar with and use it to communicate with each other. just like how you can't taste colors, you can't feel words.

i understand what chan meant now.

i heard his laugh and my heart skipped a beat. i heard the date come out of his mouth and i felt like breaking down. he made me feel every emotion without having to do anything but talk to me.

i've stumbled across the rarest feeling i didn't think existed.

jisung is still someone i can't trust. what if he does this again? what if he keeps reading this?

i'm gonna ask chan. ask him what i should do.

chan always has something to say.

he'll have his final words on december 17.