You know those negative feelings of when you let somebody down, overall your disappointed, maybe guilty.
But underneath all those negative feelings that come when hurting, disappointing or annoying somebody, there is this small little bit of satisfaction
This might not apply to all people, but definitely will to those who undoubtedly are sadistic like me.
And if you say you don't feel that satisfaction,
you do,
You just haven't realised to acknowledge it yet.
It's unconscious greed of serotonin
I'm other words greedy happiness that you haven't realised yet, because you shouldn't feel it.
You shouldn't feel that satisfaction because
whatever you did was wrong,
When you hurt somebody, you must feel bad
Or regret it, it shouldn't give you any form of happy.
And yet it does and as much as anybody denies they feel it they do, mainly people realise it through their intrusive thoughts that come when they anger somebody.
And that is now how I feel
I feel satisfied with the harm I've given
And I'm not even sorry about it
