well I'm back again
haven't wrote for a while because of exams
And I just had a lot going on
As you probably guessed
I'm sad
And I've been sad
for a few months too long
where good moods are occasional
I can't get peace
Everybody is blocking me from peace
I don't have the privacy to cry
i don't have the headspace to clear my head
I am being suffocated emotionally and mentally
even now, I'm not alone
I'm never alone until I need somebody
alone at useless times, but suddenly always having company when being alone is what I need most
sigh
what can I do about that
Nothing
I don't bother, I let it happen because I can
Yell at them, argue with them, walk away from them
tell them I wanna be alone, do all the things,
yet I'll always feel worse than I already was
i just want to cry in peace
And I'm not comfortable with myself
I hate the way I look and I can't stop eating
I'm an idiot
