Like I already said
Permanent sounds scary
However sooner or later
We all have to adapt to things
That aren't in our favour, liking or comfort.
It's been a few days and I was getting better
A little bit
Socially, mentally, physically, emotionally
That's why I haven't written over a few days
It was going back so called 'normal'
But I feel the whole feeling all over again
As if those days of getting better never happened
Physically I am drained, too much sport that I'm feeling overwhelmed by pressure and performance
I don't even enjoy playing anymore, it's now a task.
Emotionally misunderstood, nobody is getting it or understanding how I feel, they're all brick walls when I try explain how I feel so I've given up.
Mentally exhausted, I've run out of the good interests and the school, I'm getting back into bad habits and nobody cares to have even noticed yet.
Socially given up on, nobody has put on the effort to ask me how I am, be a little more kind, maybe ask how I'm feeling instead of getting annoyed at me.
It's all going back downhill after the journey up
and I don't know how I'm going to make it
Through tomorrow.
I need to cry
