I really didn't want to write this
Because I know I'll start crying again
But at this point I'm done with trying
Always trying my best at school
Always trying my best to listen to my parents
Always following rules
Telling them where I am, who I'm with and when I'll be back
Always trying to be a good friend
Always trying to make friends
Always trying to meet everyone's expectations
And I'm done
Because it clearly hasn't got me anywhere
Except for my room crying because of showing too much skin
Bicycle shorts down to my thigh
Is not what a 15 year old should wear
And of course she is going to side with them
"Naomi follow the rules and do good in school, then you can do whatever you want"
What an absolute liar
What an absolute hypocrite
What an absolute mum altogether
She hands me money and tells me to piss off
Because that's what she does best
None of that was true it was never true
Because as long as I get good grades you clearly couldn't care less about my interests or my activities or what I have going on
I do my best in school
I could easily slack
The amount of times I had opportunities
To get you to hate me
To actually have fun
To break the rules and go off doing what ppl my age are doing
But I don't
Yet I'm a horrible person for wearing bicycle shorts
At this point I want you to hate me
Now I'm stuck here thinking what all that was for.
All that studying all that discipline just for nothing
I got nothing in return but no food and no respect
That's why I fucking hate this household
Along with everyone in it
Some better than others but really they're all sick
In the end they are all messed up and I hate them all
I can't wait to leave and never see them again.
