Lately I've been living
Just as before except a bit less of everything
I'm not happy
I know what I'm supposed to be doing
But I'm doing all the wrong things to avoid
Responsibility and drainage
I know if I try doing all the right things again
I'll start pressuring myself and it will put
Me back in the same loop I've been in for so long
So I've come to my last resort
Stop trying
Now I'm putting it into action
I've only been caused harm
So I'm not trying anymore
Let me elaborate
i don't show my interest in Gaelic anymore
i stopped showing up to basketball altogether
i have also quit senior team for exams
The exams I'm not studying for
the exams I avoid
I have picked up bad habits that I quit
and I refuse to get better
Because the loop of simply
Going to school,
Coming home,
sleeping.
Makes me feel safe
i don't even eat anymore
because I'm done trying
The whole point
I don't want to drop these bad habits
I don't want to eat or study
I don't want to put myself through what
Makes me miserable
So I have stopped trying
Nobody has noticed By the way
everyone has been treating me like dirt on their shoe
They all make me want to hurt somebody
I've disappointed a lot of ppl recently
