Hate me more, love me harder

Twenty-two

If was Josie first Christmas year with a girlfriend and she was so excited but also not at the same time.

Josie and Hope hasn't spoken in like 5 days and it's hard on both of them seeing as Josie doesn't even know the reason.

Hope would admit it wasn't Josie's fault.

It was hope's fault.

Hope didn't even get a chance to tell Josie why she couldn't talk to her but that sure didn't stop Josie from trying to talk with Hope.

Hope knew that Josie would try her best to fight for them hell she would too but it was Impossible, especially when Hayley already made up her mind.

Besides they only have 2 more days left until they can see each other again.

Josie POV

It's been about 5 days since the whole 'I love you' and 'let's be girlfriends now' and I haven't said anything to her since.

Even if I wanted to I couldn't.

Today was the day I get a new phone.

My mom said she will buy me a phone today and I'm so happy because I can finally text Hope and finally figure out why she hasn't been texting me.

"Let's go get your phone and you tell me all about your week " my mom says

I was still getting use to the whole thing with my mom because it was my dads fault for why me and my mother didn't have a good relationship and now it's still hard readjusting.

"Okay, thanks Mom" I said before getting into the car.

"No problem" she say as she made her way into the car.

In the car ride it was pretty boring my mom didn't say much.

"So... why do you think your dad really did what he did?" My mom asked

"Well, he didn't like who I was becoming" I said

"What do you mean?" My mom asked starring at the road.

"I fell in love with hope" I said shyly.

"And why is that a problem?" My mom asked

"You know dad... he doesn't like the whole gay thing ... I never gave anyone a chance until Hope and now I'm literally in love with her and I couldn't even tell her or spend time with her " I said

She then glanced at me then back to the road.

"What? Why couldn't you tell her?" My mom asked sounding a bit angry.

"Because she won't call me back and I don't know what I did wrong, it might be because of what my dad had said to her" I said as I felt a tear leave my eye.

"Your dad is an ass hole... and you are grown now and you don't have to worry about that sick bastard, especially now that he is in jail, but maybe you just need to find a way to talk with her" my mom says

I didn't say much after.

Soon we had arrived at phone place and my mom has been talking with guy about the Phone for what felt like hours.

Hope POV

Today makes day 5 that I last talked with Josie.

of course I miss her but missing her isn't going to get me to spend time with her so I just need to find a way.

I have been hoping to sneak and give her at least one call or at least an explanation but my mom is always around.

The last night I cried because I seen Josie post on her twitter that she misses her girlfriend and all I wanted to do was text back and say I miss you too but I couldn't obviously.

I have been trying to not think about Josie and I found this method m that I believe that maybe if I can distract myself then I will be fine but that's easier said then done.

"Hope! Get up!" My father called me from down stairs.

I have been in my room none stop doing nothing and my dad says that I need to get some air or something.

I don't want to go anywhere else but hang out with my friends and if I'm telling you the truth I barely want to do that.

I was already dressed and ready for this lame ass day with maya.

When I got down stairs I just made my way to the car because I didn't fell like talking to anyone.

Soon my dad got into the car and we drove silently to the grill.

When I got there I just got out and my dad wished me a good day, and told me to be home in 2 hours max.

I didn't feel like taking my car.

I haven't talked to Landon in a while because of the whole him going through a break up thing with him and wade, but me and maya are pretty cool again.

I walked into the grill and it was like me and Josie first date all over again.

Another mean girl.. also hot, which I shouldn't be thinking about since I do have a girlfriend and I do love her very much.

"Hey whore" maya says as she walked up to me.

"Hey maya... what's up?" I asked

"Well this weekend has been fucking awesome and I heard that a little birdie and saltzman are going out" maya says as she chewed on her straw.

"Me and Josie ? We just started dating... and my mom made me promise not to talk to her for at least the week " I said

She got excited.

"You are taking this one serious?" She asked

"I don't want to go head over hills for this one like I did with the other one but I do want love and Josie is the one for me." I said as we walked to take our orders.

Like I said it was like the first time josie heard me say 'I love you'
Josie POV

As soon as I got my phone I texted hopes number.

I hope that's it still her number.

She might have changed it.

[me:] hey hope... you haven't texted me all week. I miss you and I love you.

Now I just have to wait...