My Past Lives' Regrets

Arc 5 Chapter 5.10 ( Actor Lu's Fanboy )

This story is still unedited , so if you found any typos and grammatical errors . You can comment it on the comment section to remind me thank you .

Cold wind breezed upon the white curtains hanging on the window . The sleeping man on the king sized bed moved a bit and a frown surfaced upon his face.

Voices keep on ringing within his head and flashed of vague images run across his mind. These images outlined similar features of his man's reincarnations , Jiro , Lai Longwei , Zhang Zhong , Mo Xun . Zone could see these vague images . In his dreams , he saw their mouth opening and closing as if they were talking.

At the same time , Zone somehow could understand what they were talking despite not hearing what they were saying.

_ Why did you gave up? _

_ Why did you forget me? _

_ You no longer love me? _

These voices made Zone feel irritated and at the same time angry. He couldn't understand Jiro. He was the one who left first , how dare he ask him in his dreams why he forgot and gave up on him ?

Zone have been suffering for a lot of centuries , thinking about why did Jiro left . Then this scum dared to ask him in his dreams why he gave up? Stupid! He's not a push over and a martyr , fool , love blind man.

It would be a fantasy if he didn't give up . Reality is reality , if someone left you. Then give up , why would he let himself suffer and drown himself to the sorrow of being left behind .

Time would fade away his feelings for Jiro and it's true , he's already numb . He doesn't even have any motivation to live anymore . What's the meaning of his life without him?

But then he suddenly thought, he could still live when Jiro has yet to appear in his life . Why not now that he's no longer here . All he needs is oxygen to live , he could still live .

But it's not easy when you think about it . His heart still aches , and his mind would subconsciously roll and remind him of Jiro from time to time . Tormenting him day and night.

There's a lot of questions unanswered and he wanted to ask Jiro why . Why did he left?

He never forgot Jiro . Contrarily , he always thought of him every second.

Zone rolls to the side and wiped his tears . Every drop of tears was hot and salty . He hates it whenever he cries for the man who hurt him , because he felt that he's pathetic , emotionally weak and pitiful . Zone is a prideful man , so he hates Jiro for making him like this .

Will he ever meet that despicable man again? Then what would be his reaction? Will he cry? Will he be happy? Sad? Angry?

Zone doesn't know , his feelings for Jiro are so complicated that even he himself couldn't determine wether he still love him or not.

While Zone is being depressed , he didn't even notice how thick and dark the dark mist covering him was . It looks ominous and dangerous at the same time. Zone however doesn't seem to notice it , but the thing is ... Does he really know his current situation?

Of course he knows ... Everytime he generates negative emotions , this dark mist originating from a curse would become more dark and powerful .

However , this kind of power is a double edged sword for Zone .

Because it would also soffucate him .

The door suddenly opened. Zone slowly opened his puffy eyes and looked at the door. There he saw a shadow of a man with head down looking like a ghost.