My Past Lives' Regrets

Arc 4 Chapter 4.10 ( The abandoned ) part 3

Opening his eyes again , Zone weakly sat up and looked around the new room . Because of the divinity he had absorbed from the world conciousness before. He can now maintain his memory while reincanating.

Zone rubbed his temple and gritted his teeth to maintain his turbulent emotions . Everytime he opens his eyes , Jiro's body would always flash within his minds constantly tormenting his brain into deep Insanity. Zone was a type of man who easily gives up and doesn't want to get his hopes high up. He has a high pride and doesn't want to be on the losing end. He admits he was hurt when Jiro left him , it was so painful that thinking about makes him feel that there's millions of pins stabbing at his heart and index fingers poking at his head ridiculing him for his deeds . He felt thousands of malicious spirits laughing maliciously at him.

" Aaaarg!!!! " Zone shouted and clutched his forehead .

Tears started flowing down from his eyes . He felt his brain and chest breaking into peaces and it was agonizing.

" Stop it!!! "

The door was suddenly opened and a gentle looking middle aged woman entered with a worried gaze and sat down on the bed , held both of the young man's head and hugged him to her chest .

" Son ... Calm down . "

The woman noticed the agonizing pain his son was suffering . She couldn't help feeling bad for her son . She tightened her hug and kissed his temple .

" You can withstand it son . I know she doesn't love you anymore but mom is still here . We love you . "

Zone sobbed and hugged her back. " It hurts. " He hoarsely uttered .

" I know "

A head dyed in golden popped out and entered the room . Shade secretly watched Zone , not expecting to see this kind of side to Zone . The Zone within mind was bright and sunny , and as time passed changed unto numbness with real emotions masked within a stoic and seemingly calm persona. When he met him again , he has a depressed and gloomy atmosphere upon his face.

Shade was concerned for Zone but Zone always alienated everyone from his world . It is now their 40th reincarnation ever since Jiro left Zone and it also meant that Zone reincarnated 40 times without Jiro beside him . He knew it was painful , he himself felt hurt when he tried putting himself within Zone's shoe .

He admits that Shade developed a kind of feeling for Zone out of pity thinking that he could do better and love Zone better if it was him who was Zone's husband.

But he doesn't want to be labeled as an adulterer , and just emersed himself with his fate of a second male lead .

" Oh , Donie you're here . Can you pacify this heartbroken man? He cant just stay depressed because of a mere love you know . How come this kid had fallen so deep that he would torment himself like this? " Said Zone's reincarnation's mother in distress .

Donie (Shade) , smiled and nodded to Mrs. Echevas . " I'll take in charge with him Auntie don't worry . "

He entered and sat at the edge of the bed . Mrs. Echevas nodded and smiled at Donie before giving her son another hug again before exiting .

After Mrs. Echevas exited the room . Shade couldn't help laughing and pointed at the gloomy man .

" Dude , you're a second make lead right now unexpectedly . I didn't expect you would reincarnate as a second male lead when you mostly reincarnate as a villain or a protagonist. "

Zone clicked his tongue and climb down the bed before taking off his upper clothes .

The body he possessed this time lacks blood and he felt dizziness when he finally stand up .