GIRLFRIEND // B.E

twenty-two.

•zayda•

i rolled over again, and i pulled my blanket up to my chin. i tried to fall asleep, but it was no use.

i rolled over once again, this time laying on my side instead of my stomach. i tried to fall asleep, but yet, i still couldn't. i sighed.

my brows furrowed as i heard something. i looked around my room as i sat up.

i looked over at my window, and i saw that somebody was crawling through my it. my eyes widened, though i relaxed as they fell and mumbled out an "shit... fuck, dude," which made me realize that it was just billie.

"i think i'm concussed," she pouted as she rubbed at her head.

"how— how did you even..." i stared at her as my brows furrowed.

"you left your window opened a bit. anyways, i'm here to cuddle."

she always seems to know when to come over; every time i can't sleep, she shows up without me even asking her to.

i shook my head with a small laugh. "c'mere, stupid."

she got up from the floor. she closed my window back before walking over to me. she slipped her shoes off, then crawled into my bed with me. she hovered over me.

"hi, baby," she flashed an adorable smile as she looked down at me.

"hi," i giggled.

her eyes darted down before she leaned down to press her lips to mine. i reached my hands up to cup her cheeks as i kissed her back.

she pulled back. i watched as she smiled while her eyes scanned over my face. she then leaned back and pressed her lips to mine again.

when she pulled back again, she peppered sweet kisses all across my face. i giggled as she did. she grinned before planting a final kiss to my forehead. after she did, she fell onto the bed and laid beside me, then pulled me into her embrace.

i cuddled close to her, and i buried my head into her chest. she wrapped her arms around me comfortingly. she rested her chin on the top of my head.

it was quiet for a moment. "have you told leila yet?"

i frowned. "no..."

she let out a deep sigh. "when are you going to?"

it's been three days since me and billie made up. to be fair, leila has been extremely busy with softball practice and everything; i really haven't even seen her except briefly at school earlier today.

i'll for sure try to tell her this weekend. five or six days should give me plenty of time to ease my nerves to be able to tell her. not only that, but since it'll be the weekend, she won't have any softball practice; she'll be free to talk.

"soon," i told her quietly. "i promise."

she didn't say anything. she moved her chin from where it had been resting on my head. my frown deepened.

"i'm sor—"

"it's fine, zay," she cut me off. "just go to sleep."

"okay..." i mumbled as i buried my face further into her chest. my hands nervously clutched the back of the hoodie she was wearing.

•••

"are you mad at me?"

billie stopped playing the piano. it's after school, and i'm over at her house. i had been sitting on her bed, while she played the piano.

"what? no, baby, i'm not mad at you," she assured as she looked over at me. "what makes you think that?"

"i dunno... it's just that you haven't really talked to me today," i mumbled, then teasingly added "usually, i can never get you to shut up."

she stood up from the piano bench, and she walked over to me. "sorry, that's my fault; completely on me," she told me as she hovered over me. "i've been caught in my thoughts today," she said before pressing a sweet kiss to my forehead.

"promise?" my eyes met her's as she laid beside me.

"promise," she said. she grabbed my hand and brought it up to her mouth to press a kiss to my knuckles. i smiled.

she moved so that she was laying beside me. i moved my hand from her's so that i could instead cup her cheek.

"what have you been thinking about, bil?" i questioned softly.

she faltered for a moment before shrugging. "just things; nothing to worry about, mama."

"you sure?" my brows furrowed as my eyes searched her's.

"i'm sure," she nodded a bit before leaning forward to press her lips to mine.

i immediately melted into the kiss. her hands moved to my waist to pull me into her lap. my hand, which had been cupping her cheek, drifted down to her chin to gently guide the kiss.

i know it's wrong for me to be kissing her while i still have a girlfriend, but for some reason, it just feels so right.

i swear i'm telling leila this weekend. as fun as it sneaking around with billie, it also makes me nervous as fuck. nowhere near as nervous and anxious as i was before we made up, but definitely still pretty fucking nervous.

"you're so pretty," billie whispered against my lips. "i hope you know that."

"thank you," i couldn't help but smile as i rested my forehead against her's. "but you're prettier."

"mm..." she hummed. "nah, that's false."

"nah, it's correct," i argued with a giggle.

her hands rubbed up and down my waist a bit before stopping. her thumbs rubbed small circles. "definitely not, zay. you're so pretty, i swear."

i felt my face flush. i moved my forehead so that it rested on her shoulder instead of against her forehead, so that she couldn't see my blush.

she pressed her lips to my neck. "kiss me again, or i'ma bite you."

"girl, what—" i started to say, but she cut me off.

"kiss me again, or i'ma bite you!" she repeated with a laugh.

i pulled my head back. i stared at her in awe for a moment before pressing my lips against her's again. she wasted no time in kissing me back.

she lifted her hands and cupped my cheeks. she then sucked in before blowing air into my mouth. i pulled back and dropped my jaw.

"what the fuck?!" i stared at her in disbelief, though she kept laughing loudly as she threw her head back.

"you're so annoying," i huffed in faux annoyance as i crossed my arms over my chest and avoided look at her.

"yeah, right," she giggled before she kissed my cheek. she then captured my lips in another kiss.

•••

a/n ayoo

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