Brave

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|Eldon's P O V|
It was 1pm on a Saturday, wow I slept forever. For a few seconds I had forgotten, forgotten about all the crying last night, about Daniel wanting to talk to me, about everything, but then all the events of yesterday came back, then the thought of what happened between Daniel and I, the kiss, everything. I just want to erase this haunting memory that bugs me every day of every week. I checked my phone, the 1 new message notifictation flashed on the lock screen of my phone, I remember ignoring this yesterday, might as well read it now. I unlocked my phone, I don't bother keeping a passcode lock on it anymore, I always forget those.

Daniel:
Eldon we need to talk...

Oh no, it was him, why does he keep insisting on talking about this. I started to pace around the room, staring at my phone screen. Should I reply? Should I not reply? What should I do? I should reply, I mean after basically assaulting him, I at least owe him a text back...

Me: i know.. Look sorry about what happened dude im really really sorry

I press send, not knowing if he will be on the attack, or if he will forgive me. I'm praying he'll forgive me. I need to stop the living hell that my thoughts have been for the past month.
Three minutes later, still no reply. This makes me so nervous, what if he was expecting a different answer? What if-
*buzz*

Daniel: I forgive you Eldon, I just want to know why you did it? I assume it was a form of attack, but why didn't you just punch me instead?

Thank God he forgives me, but another question, really? I have a feeling this is going to be a long conversation...

Me: Thank u for forgiving me. idk why i kissed u though

Daniel replyed in seconds.

Daniel: Are you gay? I promise I won't tell if you are.

Am I gay? I don't know... I think so. Actually, I think I'm bi, no, not really, yeah I'm gay. So what. I'm gay, me, Eldon, I am gay, I am a dude who is attracted to dudes. I am gay. Should I just tell him? I mean it's been about a month and Daniel hasn't told anyone about the kiss, so, I guess I can trust him, plus, I need to tell someone, this secret has been bugging me for months, I need to tell someone.

Me: yeah i am, please dont tell anyone, please.

I deleted and retyped this message dozens of times, 'till I finally got the courage to send it. As soon as I sent it, I started to shake, I started to cry, my stomach started to do flips.
Someone knows my secret now, what if he hates me now, what if he does tell? What if he uses it as revenge? What if, what if he teases me or calls me gross or something? I shouldn't have sent it, this is a big mistake.
9 minutes later, still no reply. I am so scared, what did I do. I kept turning on and off my phone, hoping to see a message the next time the screen lit up. No reply. I threw myself onto the bed, and put my phone beside me, waiting for the buzz. I can't believe I hit that stupid send button. I just made a terrible mistake.
*buzz*
Oh god, he replied. A part of me doesn't want to look at my phone, a part of me just wants to throw my phone away, but I know I should open it, the curiousity would kill me.

Daniel: Sorry for the wait, my mother needed help with something. Anyways it's great you can admit you are gay, there is nothing wrong with it. Anyways, I just think I should let you know that I am not gay, I'm straight, so please don't go kissing me again. Anyways if you ever need to talk, just text me, okay? I am glad to be there for you if you need me. But, I have to go now Eldon. I'll see you around.

Daniel: I promise I will not tell anyone by the way. Bye Eldon.

I sighed as I read this. I started to laugh out of pure relief, he's gonna keep this a secret, and he doesn't hate me! This text conversation with Daniel was the shortest conversation I have ever had ever had by text, but it was also the most meaningful text conversation I have ever had. I am finally out to someone, finally, someone knows who I really am!
"Eldon honey!"
"What mom?"
"We're leaving to see Grandma in 10 minutes. Make sure you are ready!"
Shit that was today!? Whatever, I guess this will be a good distraction from everything.

|Emily's P O V|
I knocked on Riley's bedroom door.
"Ri, can I come in?"
"Yeah."
I still feel really bad about yesterday night, it must have been so embarassing and awkward for her...
"You okay?"
Riley was laying on her bed, staring at the ceiling. She sighed then sat up.
"Yeah, by the way, thank you for yesterday, I should've known better than to do that with him. It could've been a huge mistake." I sat down on the bed next to Riley and put a hand on her shoulder to try and comfort her.
"I still feel bad though, and I'm sorry."
I hugged Riley tightly and she started to cry on my shoulder, I hate seeing her so, broken.
"It's okay Em. Why did you come into my room anyways?" Riley sniffled then looked at me, her face was red and her eyes were watery.
I honestly can't remember what I came into her room for... something about Michelle... I sort of lost track of what I came in for when I saw Riley and James...
"I don't remember, but it doesn't matter now anyways, okay?"
"Okay."