i'm trying not to confuse rushing and taking necessary steps. i outgrow my environment so quickly, but it's because i'm constantly wanting to do more and be better. i don't want to stay in one place and get too comfortable because then i'm stuck there. if i get too comfortable i won't want to leave. just like with you. i got too comfortable and i by the time i finally left i didn't even recognize myself anymore. is that why i am how i am? does it all come back to you? did you traumatize me this much? but is this for the better? my career is finally taking off and i'm being noticed by so many people from all over. but the pressure. i feel so much pressure from all different aspects of my life and i don't have time to take a step back because if i do that then it'll all fall apart. so much is hanging on by a thread and sometimes i just want to cut it myself. that's just not how life works. you keep pushing, and you smile, and it all works out.
life isn't happy 24/7. it's has big happy moments that make it all worth it.
like walking around town in the middle of the summer night with your best friend by your side, holding your hand.
driving downtown with the sunroof open, the cool air through your hair and the music turned down low
the way tundra rests her head on your lap and sleeps
the way coffee feels and tastes first thing in the morning
buying little things with big meanings
seeing your favorite artist in concert
laughing with your best friend about anything and everything all night long
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Things I'm Thinking About
PoesíaThis started as a note in my phone but I wanted to share it for others to read as well. These are the thoughts that I have gone through after getting out of an unhealthy relationship, rejoining the dating scene, and rediscovering myself. It's so cle...
