i think that i'm scared. i think i feel so much peace in my life, and love for myself, and i'm so scared to lose that all again. i'm scared that i don't know how to put myself first in relationship. i'm scared that i will let them take and take and take until i'm nothing. again. i cant go through the pain of losing myself and finding myself again. i've hardly had the chance to find me. not like i did before. but maybe it's up to me to do that. actually i know it is. but now i'm in too deep with these people and they expect things out of me and i don't want to give it to them. i shouldn't have started this without being able to finish it. i should've known i wasn't ready for anything. i don't know why i was so quick to try. it's like i needed to know that i could do it. that people were interested in me and that he had only brainwashed me into thinking i wasn't loved. that i wasn't capable of being loved.
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PoesíaThis started as a note in my phone but I wanted to share it for others to read as well. These are the thoughts that I have gone through after getting out of an unhealthy relationship, rejoining the dating scene, and rediscovering myself. It's so cle...
