|MentAll| Deku x Fem!Reader

37- It's you

After an emotionally draining day, you finally get back to the dorms, thanks to Denki having a big mouth, everyone knew about you and Izuku, some couldn't believe he would do such a thing, and pretty much everyone felt sorry for you. Which you hated, you hated being pitied, you hated feeling weak, and this whole situation make you feel worthless. Bakugou made sure everyone gave you your space, keeping everyone from speaking about Izuku around you and giving Denki a good ass kicking for telling everyone.
You go straight to your room, changing in to some comfortable clothes and flopping on your bed with a thud.
After about 20 minutes of staring blankly at your ceiling in the dark, you hear a knock on your door, you didn't want to get up, you didn't want to move. And you didn't, even when the door opened and Bakugou walked over to you bed laying next to you on his back.
"I know you don't want to talk. I don't either. Just thought you would like some company." He mumbles quietly, placing his large hand over yours, to witch you intertwine your fingers with his as he softly stokes you with his thumb.
After a few moments of silence, you sigh.
"Katsuki, I know you hate it but... I just really need a hug right now..." You mumble quietly, waiting for his answer, after a few seconds you assumed he didn't want to, he never was a touchy guy but you always bullied him in to accepting your affection and it kinda grew on him.
You suddenly feel him pull you in to his chest as he wraps his arms around you, you eyes widen momentarily before they start to well up with salty tears that threatened to fall at any second.
"You tell anyone about this and your dead." He whispers in to your hair, making you smile weakly.
"Yeah, same goes for you blondie." You choke out snuggling in to his embrace.
"Why do you even like him?" You stay quiet at his question, pondering on the answer. "If you don't wanna talk about it-"
"I don't know." You say quietly. "I guess I just do. I knew why before, but I'm nit so sure now."
"As much as I hate him right now, I agree with most of the extras. Even though I hate to admit it, it's hard to believe he would do this." You grip on to his shirt at him words, hating that they sparked a flame of hope.
"I find it hard to believe to, but what else could it be." You mumble, wiping away a fallen tear.
"I don't know..."

Waking up the next morning, you hear loud snoring and glance to your side, Bakugou was dead asleep, drooling all over your pillow. You rip it out from under his head and smack him with it.
"WHO THE FUCK-" He wakes up angrily screaming before you flick his forehead.
"Get dressed, or we'll be late for class." You say as you get up and rummage through your closet for a fresh uniform.
"Yeah yeah." He groans getting up, he ruffles your hair as he walks to your door. "Don't be late." He sais before leaving, you sigh as you make your way to your bathroom to get ready.

Three weeks had gone by, you had lost hope of hearing any news on Izuku, even the teachers had stoped asking about him after talking with All Might.
You tried talking to your dad if he knew anything about where Izuku could be, but he simply said that he hadn't heard anything from him and that if he didn't tell anyone, it was probably because he didn't want to be found.
You just mindlessly let the days pass, not having much motivation to do anything, you were also on hold from training as earlier in the week you went overboard and sent 3 teachers to the hospital. Most of your class and All Might spoke to Nezu and explained the situation so you didn't get expelled or too harsh a punishment.
But your friends were there for you. The girls started to invite you over to their dorms for some girl time, it really helped distract you from it all. Spending a few hours with them braiding hair, gossiping and watching tacky movies cheered you up a bit.
It was the nights that were the worse, for over a week you went back to your dorm and cried yourself to sleep, many nights you didn't even sleep, as your mind fantasised all the possible reasons why he left. Some nights you were positive, that he must have gone on some solo mission and didn't tell anyone for some reason, and it filled you with worry. Other nights, you counted all the possible reasons why he would want to leave you, hyper fixating on all your flaws, hating yourself half the time. In a way, you wanted to know why, but you also dreaded the confirmation that you weren't good enough.
Katsuki started spending the nights after some time. He could hear you crying during the night as his dorm was closest to yours. He wouldn't talk, he would come in after curfew, crawl in your bed and hold you through the night. Every time you would start to cry, he would rub circles on your skin with his fingers, or stroke your hair until you settled again.
He always made sure to stay until morning. He never left before you woke up.
You were so thankful to have him in your life, he kept you sane, and reassured you, in his own harsh way, that whatever the reason Izuku disappeared, it wasn't your fault. And some days, you almost believed him.
You curse yourself for falling for Izuku instead of Katsuki, even though you could never see him that way, he was like the big brother you never had, and you were like his little sister that he felt he had to protect at any cost.