Unwanted - Danielle and Stefania ON HOLD

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A/N = just heads up, for some reason "I'm" automatically changed to "mi" and despite how many proof reads I've done, there's probably still a few in there so just ignore it 

"shit" Izzie mutters under her breath, having just woken up at 4 in the morning from yet another nightmare

she had managed to not wake up either Danielle or Stefania luckily, crawling out from in between them and going to sit in the living room. she hadn't told them about the nightmares, not wanting any more sympathy than she was already getting.

"Hey, why are you up?" Danielle asks, coming out of the room quietly

"No reason just woke up" she lies, Danielle sitting on the couch with her,

"What are you thinking about"

"nothing"

"Izzie"

"I said I'm fine" she sighs

"But you're not, it's gone 4 in the morning and you're awake, what's wrong"

"nothing's wrong, Danielle," she says, getting annoyed

"Well, then why aren't you asleep?"

"I- Dani," she says, just wanting to think for a minute

"Izzie, just tell me what's wrong" she pleads

"I need space, I need to think," she says clearly

"You don't need to be alone though"

"I don't work like you; you are being here doesn't help"

"Well, then what have I been doing this whole time?"

"I'm not joking, just 5 minutes alone!"

"Izzie, im just trying to help-,"

"I don't need help, I need space!" she says, getting up and going into the bathroom, locking the door behind her, just wanting a break for 2 minutes

Danielle on the other hand was sat on the floor against the wall, on the other side of the door, not liking how the door was locked

"Izzie, are you ok?" she asks after a few minutes of silence, not getting an answer, "listen, I know I'm not any good at this because we are polar opposites," she says, knowing Izzie didn't have a choice but to listen

"When I freak out I want to be around people and when you do, you want to be alone, and I don't understand that because I don't know how it could help you. that's why I'm still sat here. I want to be good at this whole thing but that's probably more of a carina thing because I just struggle with it. I know you have never had someone be there for you, so I guess I don't know whether you want to be alone because that's what you're used to or because that's actually what helps but either way, I know it's not my choice, so im sorry for pushing you. im sorry if I'm being a total pain in the ass right now because you want to be alone and mi rambling on about myself which is really dumb, but I think I'm just scared of messing this up" she finishes, hearing the door unlock and Izzie coming and sitting on the floor next to her, not saying anything for a while

"you're not messing it up" she states quietly, "I don't like being near people when I get like this because it's when I snap. I say stupid things that I don't mean and end up hurting them. it's not anything to do with how I deal with my shit, it's the fact that there's no way I'm letting myself say something bad to you or stef" she admits, Danielle just listening,

"Why were you awake?" she asks

"nightmare"

"Do you get them a lot?"