A Life of a R5er (Ross Lynch/R5/Fan Fiction)

Chapter 20 : I Was Wrong

                                                                        Loghan's P.O.V.

'' Does Ross love me ? '' I ask Rydel . '' Of course he does I haven't seen him look at a girl like he does to you . You're something special to him . '' Rydel says . I can't believe what I'm hearing . I guess I haven't thought about things that Ross does with me or for me or even the way he looks at me . Maybe I just can't see what Rydel sees . '' I .... '' I don't really know what to say after that besides go see him right now and jump in his arms . '' It's ok you don't have to say anything . Go get him tiger . '' Rydel says . It made me laugh the way she said it .

I get up from the bed . I walk slow to the door because I'mkind of nerves in a way . Before I open the door I look back at Rydel she has a thumbs up . '' Go go . '' She says pushing me out the door . I walk out now I'm in the hall way with a huge smile on my face . I just pray before I go in to hope it goes right . And not weird or ackward . Wait what am I saying just go for it .

If it doesn't work then I guess not ment to be . But I really hope it does because I need that person that I can talk to about anything . And for him to be by my side when I need him . I open the door slowly looking at the ground with a smile on my face . But then when I look up to see what I'm seeing . I never imagined Ross doing this . I start to have tears in my eyes . Just seeing her kiss him . His hands going down her body . It all makes me want to just scream and brake something .

'' What the hell . '' I say . They both look at me . The girl is just smiling . Ross is looking at me like he just saw a ghost . Ross pulls the girl away . '' This was a mistake sorry but you have to go . '' Ross says to the girl . The girl puts her shirt back on and walks out the door . But I stop her and tell her '' Bye have a nice fucking day . '' I slammed the door in her face .

'' What the hell is wrong with you ? '' I ask whiping tears from under my eyes . Ross just stode there . '' You know what once I start liking a guy and wanting to be with them they do this . There hasn't been a lot but it's been you and Rocky . I thought you weren't like that but I was wrong . '' I tell him walking towards the window not bothering to look at Ross .

'' I can explain . '' Ross says . '' I don't wanna hear it Ross . '' I tell him . I stareit the window and look down at the cars passing by . I grab my ear puds and phone . I listen to All Time Low . I can't hear anything besides the music . That's all I want to listen to right now . I remember I was so excited to go on this tour and now I know it was a mistake .

I go through all my pictures on my phone . There wasn't that much intill this tour . Every show I have been to with them I took a bunch of pictures . I wanted to save them and never let them go . All of a sudden I see a picture of me and Ross . We looked happy . It was at the bar . Now I remember somethings from that night . The was the picture where Ross was behind me but he was kissing my check . I want that Ross back . Not the one I saw a few minutes ago .

I didn't want to look beside me but the corner of my eye I could tell Ross was sitting there . Looking at the ground with his hands going through his hair . I still had the picture on my phone so I looked at him and said '' I want that Ross back . '' I showed him that picture of us . '' I'm still that Ross . '' Ross said . I didn't believe him because if he was he wouldn't do what I walked in to .

'' I'm kind of happy I walked in sooner then later so I wouldn't make a mistake like I did before . '' I told him . He is looking at me with tears in his eyes . He's probably realizing he was stupid doing that . But who knows I don't know what goes on in guys heads . '' Don't say that . '' Ross said . '' Well I did , I'm going to bed . '' I tell him walking to my bed . I don't care about changing I just wanna get under these blankets . I hope I have a good dream . I hear Ross getting in bed as well .

                                                        Ross's P.O.V.

I totally scrude up . Next time I'm not using advise from Riker . I love Loghan . I need her . When we both wake up I'm not going to stop trying intill she loves me . I don't care how long it takes . I will do what I have to do to get her back . I'm not like Rocky that just gives up . I was so stipid to believe that would work . Loghan isn't like any other girl . There are so many things about her that makes her different .

I'm not even that kind of person who does that . Why would I do that . Especially to someone I love . '' I love you Loghan . '' I say loud so she could hear it . But she probably is sleeping . I don't think I'm going to get any sleep . I start to hear crying . I just want to go over there and hold her , kiss her , and ask if she is ok . What are you talking about I'm the reason why she is not ok . But I have to go over there . I get up and look at her . The blanket is all wraped around her . She looks cute . I start to lean on the bed . I am over her . '' Pleas tell me what I can do to help ? '' I ask her . She just stares athe the side of the wall where there is nothing but white paint . '' Ross please go I'm not going to run to you and pretend everything ok when nothing is . '' She says . I have to understand how she feels .

I'm the one that made her feel this now . All I know is I have to get her back .

A/N - Well hi guys what's up . I decided to make all the chapters I can this weekend because I haven't been in school for the past for days . So I havea feeling that I will have a lot of homework . And I willn't be able to make chapters . So I hope you guys like it . Even though Rydel did help Loghan figure out . There is one person out of R5 that will help her figure out our feelings toward Ross even though this just happened . Howdo you guys feel about it . Do you think She will see that Ross made a hug mistake or will she hold it off for a while . But Vote and Comment what you guys think . Lets just say there is so much more between Ross and Loghan that has to be done and I can't wait to write it .