A Life of a R5er (Ross Lynch/R5/Fan Fiction)

Chapter 32 : I'm Not Okay With It

                                                                    Loghan's P.O.V.

I woke up and felt like today is going to be okay. Nothing bad will happen. Ross will understand. That girl is gone. Me and my mother and my brother are good. I feel happy.

I get out of bed. I grab my phone to text Ross but then I decided to surprise him. I went to grab my clothes then head in the shower. The whole time I was in the shower I couldn't stop thinking of Ross. I feel bad that I left. The thing is if I stayed I would be mad and upset. I would start something that will cause more.

I finish washing my hair when my mom calls my name. ''Just a minute.'' I yell so she can hear. I dry my self off and change. I try to look decent. Didn't work well. ''Coming mom.'' I tell her walking down the stairs. ''Hay hun.'' She says.

Okay she's only like that when she wants to do something with me. ''Yes?'' I ask. ''Do you wanna do something just me and you today. Ryan out with his friends.'' She says. ''Umm well I was going to surprise Ross.'' I tell her feeling really bad. ''Okay that's fine just don't do anything stupid.'' She says. I know what she means and trust me that wont happen for a while.

I go back up stairs to grab my phone and shows. I put them on and my phone in my back pocket. Before I leave the house I said ''Bye mom love you.'' Okay that felt weird. Frist time I said that in a long time.

I go in my car. The first song that starts to play is Tear My Heart by Twenty One Pilots. I love this song. I was singing every word to it on the way to the Lynch's. Which wasn't that long but it's okay.

I turn off my car and head to the door. Ross told me where they keep the spare key. Under the mat. I grab it and let my self in. I look around to see if anyone is up. Some of them are outside. I don't want to bother them.

I walk quietly to Ross's room. Like I said I want to surprise him. I keep getting closer and I'm hearing voices like more then one. I hope it's not what I'm thinking. The door is cracked open. I could see Ross's back and a girl. Courtney. ''I miss this.'' She says. She leans and kisses him. Ross pulls her closer.

I don't know what to do either just leave or say something. Leaving is the best thing so she wont get in the middle of us well technically she already is. ''What the hell Ross?'' I say not listening to myself. The both look at me.

I feel tears building up. He just stares at me like he seen a ghost. ''Loghan.'' He says. He gets up and walks toward me. But I'm already leaving. I was about to open the door but Ross stopped me. I turn around and face him. We're that close.

''I'm sorry.'' He whispers. I turn my head where I'm not facing him. Yep I'm crying now. ''That's the second time you have done this and all you have to say is I'm sorry.'' I spat at him. He probably can't understand me.

'''Please forgive me.'' He says. ''No Ross let me go.'' I scream. Kicking him in the stomach. He doesn't fall. I start to scream. ''Please forgive me I didn't mean too please please.'' He says. Now he's crying. Everyone starts to come in. They run towards us. Riker and his dad try to pull him back. Once I'm able to get free of him I'm surprised of who's arms I run to. Rocky's. He does hug me back though.

I cry in his shirt. ''What's going on?'' Stormie asked. ''I slept with Courtney.'' Ross says sounding depressed. ''I walked in when sluty over there was putting her tongue down his throut.'' I say whipping the tears from my face.

They all look at me and surprised I said that. ''I need to leave.'' I say Rocky lets me go. I walk to the door. Stormie gives me a big hug. She whispers in my ear. ''I'm so sorry Ross did this.''

I leave but I can't I just wanna cry and cry. I walk to my car whipping tears. I turn the music up as loud as it can go. People probably think I'm crazy. I am. The car ride took forever. I just run in my room and be alone forever. This is like my first real relationship. Yeah so I dated Rocky first to me I don't count that.

I finally get home. I try to open the door quickly but I fumble with the keys. Yes I get in. I couldn't really see everything was blurry. I see my mom looking at me. I hear her following me up in my room. I shut the door before she could come in. I lock it so no one can come in. ''What happened baby?'' She asked through the door. ''Go away.'' I say sliding down the door. I bursted out crying.

I crowd on the floor to my bed. I take off my shoes and jump in to bed under the covers and cried. I did get up to put music on as loud as I could. I can't even hear my self think. That's the way I like it.

I get back in my bed and just cry. Trying to think why he would do that. Is is because I left? Wait no that's not like him he was just being a idiot that I can never forgive.

                                                               Ross's P.O.V.

I have never seen her that upset before. She was like this with Rocky but worse. I didn't mean to do it. I'm so stupid. Stupid stupid stupid I tell my self. Why would I do that? I love Loghan so much. She means everything to me. Everyone is looking at me. I stand there. Everyone leaves but Rocky and Rydel they were the closest to her beside me. ''Why did you do that?'' Rocky asked me.

I was pissed. ''Don't be like that you did it to her too.'' I tell him. ''Whoa dude I didn't do anything to you and I had a reason for my mistake what's yours.'' He says then leaves. Rydel is just stand there. I don't why I did it that's probably why she never will forgive me. I'm in love with her. ''Rydel what should I do?'' I ask like I was begging her. ''It's all on you.'' She says and walks to the door. ''Where are you going?'' I ask her. ''Going to make sure she is okay.'' Rydel says.

That's what I should be doing. I run into my room to get changed and leave. Oh wait one problem Courtney. She sits on my bed like nothing happened. ''GET OUT!" I yell. She looks at me in surprise. ''I said get out and never come back here again.'' She gets up and grabs her things and leaves. Thank god she's gone. I notice a piece of paper on my dresser. It's from Loghan. This must be from last night why she left.

A/N- Poor Ross. Hi guys so there is probably going to be one more chapter. Yeah I think so. I'm going to miss writing this story. Can't wait to write another R5 story. I try to have it for different characters. I'm going to start a teen fiction one. Of my friend's Sydney and Tristan. I'm not going to say much. But hopefully its good. Somethings wont be exact some will be made up. Anyway hope you guys like it. Vote and Comment what you think.