From The Diary Of Akshaya

A bit traumatized

Feeling confused and a bit traumatized. Not really. I'm damn traumatized. It's like history is repeating all over again and the thing about my history is it was not easy...at all. It broke me to an extent that I hurt the people I love, I isolated myself from everything else, I couldn't eat or sleep without that constant anxiety I was totally shattered and it took me a long time to pull myself together and it's repeating all over again. Just when I thought everything was going right. I don't know whether I have it in myself to handle it this time. I am damn scared. I feel anxious literally all the time and most of the time I started doing things I regret. The worst thing is I couldn't talk to anyone about it. It's so fragile and personal. I just hate being in this place. I want to cry so bad but I had to hide my tears. I want to scream but I couldn't. It feels suffocating like I am drowning.

Just felt like sharing 'how' I feel, leaving out the 'why' part