Beauty ruled a Beast

Chapter 15

There's something I learned about him as we began living together.

I watched him as he sit in the couch in front of me.

He has a habit of reading a book when he's in a bad mood.

I sighed before leaning in the couch and looked up in the ceiling. It's been a whole day and he never talk to me ever. After my mom and him talked, he isn't in a good mood anymore.

I want to ask what they talked about but afraid that he'll be upset more.

I looked at him again and saw him reading but his eyes is on his phone every seconds. Like he's waiting for an important message or something.

I noticed it already ever since I lived with him a month ago. Whenever he wasn't in a good mood, he'll always used his phone. They were times that I always catches him every morning talking happily with someone over the phone. Mostly I catches him was whenever I wasn't around and early in the morning.

I always noticed that but remained silent about it just so we won't start a fight over that. And whenever that happens and I overthink because of that. I always had a dreamed about someone I can't even see the face. Like they are connected to each other.

I closed my eyes while thinking about that and fell asleep. I'm already lying in the couch with a comforter when I woke up. But Sebastian isn't around anymore.

I frowned and closed my eyes again when I heard a voice coming from the kitchen.

"I'm sorry, love. I'll be there the next day after tomorrow. I just need to take care of something. Well go anywhere you want when I got home, okay? I'm really sorry. I love you," malambing na boses na sabi ni Sebastian.

The condo become silent after that. I'm processing what I just heard. The same happy voice that I always caught whenever I wasn't around. And the fact that I am around this time. What the hell?

I want to ask him about it but keep my mouth shut. I'm always used to ask when I want to know something. But right now, my tongue is like cut off my mouth.

We eat together silently but I didn't ask him anything. Even after that I didn't ask, even when we're both lying in the bed to sleep. I didn't ask.

Why?

It's because I am scared to know the truth. I'm scared that whatever I have in mind might be true. I'm scared to be left out like what I always do to every women passed on my life. I'm scared to be left alone. I'm scared that the person I give my heart whole, will left me.

I'm scared to lose him.

I realized then that we've been in relationship for a month but I never heard him say that he loves me. It's not a big deal to me because I can feel that he loves me.

Not until I heard him say those three words to someone over the phone. It so easy for him to say that to whoever that person but can't say it to me even once.

I sighed. We're just starting so it's fine. I hope it'll be fine.

"It's probably work abroad," si Senon.

He sipped on his coffee. I didn't speak and just stared on my own coffee.

"What's wrong?" Tanong niya.

"He left to see someone, right?" Wala sa sarili kong tanong.

I looked at Senon because he become silent. Seryoso ang muka niya habang naninimbang ang tingin sa akin.

"Do you trust him?" Tanong niya kalaunan.

I nodded without hesitation.

"There's something you doesn't know yet about him. Something that you'll regret once you know. You might even blame yourself for it." Makahulugan niyang sabi na lalo kong ikinalito.