My Unforgettable Spectrum (Cariñoso Series #1)

Chapter 13

Chapter 13

A reticent person; is someone who prefers to keep their feelings to themselves, is uncommunicative, and prefers silence. And, like me, I chose to remain discreet and keep everything to myself to avoid exacerbating the situation. I sometimes feel like I'm being petty since these aren't the kinds of things I should be thinking about.

But then I realized that when it comes to your problem, there is no such thing as petty. Every difficulty, no matter how minor, may be despairing. Whatever agony we call it, every emotion we have is valid. Whatever the issue is, it is not trivial because we all suffer in different ways.

"Konti pa, malapit na rin 'to," I whispered to myself while reviewing. Kasalukuyan akong nasa kwarto ko, nag-aaral para sa exam bukas. Exam lang naman  kaya maaga rin ang uwian namin ngayong linggo. 

Kanina ay half-day lang kami kaya mas nakatulong 'yon sa 'kin para mas matagal akong makapag-aral. I know it'll be a long night for me because my mind was wandering as I was reviewing. 

I can constantly see Sebastian from my peripheral vision during classes, recess, and dismissal time, and I can always see him attempting to approach me, but of course, I would dodge him, and it would always get to a point when Sylvainne was with him, so he couldn't do anything.

Hindi ko alam kung sinasadya ba na laging sumasakto si Sylvainne sa eksena or tadhana na mismo ang gumagawa ng paraan para mag-distansya kami. Pero tama nalang rin 'yon dahil ang balita ay nililigawan na nya si Sylvainne. More of a reason why I should distance myself from him. 

Madalas ko ring kasama si Nate ng ganoong oras because he told me I might need an accompany. Madalas hindi ako pumapayag simula nang marinig ko 'yung pag-chi-chismisan ng ibang estudyante tungkol sa 'kin. I didn't know that they looked at it in that way. 

Hindi ko naman pinapalitan si Sebastian, e. I'm just trying to keep my distance, even though it's difficult. I'm also trying to make friends with Nate because he is nice. That's all. Sebastian is one of the people I would never consider replacing in my life. I couldn't possibly replace him because he holds a special place in my heart. 

English, Science, Health ang exam namin bukas. Medyo mabigat dahil parehong major subject tapos may isang minor rin. Maraming terms ang kailangan i-memorize. Ito 'yung dahilan bakit sinimulan ko na gawin 'yung reviewer para hindi na 'ko mahirapan kapag sinimulan ko ng aralin 'to. 

I took a 5-minute break to drink some water to keep myself hydrated when I suddenly received a call. Agad ko itong sinagot nang makita sino ang tumatawag.

Hendrix is calling...

"Hello?" I said as I answered the call. Using my left hand, I started drinking water while waiting for him to talk, nilapag ko 'yung tubigan ko bago ayusin 'yung suot kong salamin.

"Where are you? I'm at your gate." He sounded bored. Baka kanina pa 'to nandoon! "I've been knocking at your gate for 30 minutes already." 

Napasapo ako sa noo habang sinisilip 'yung bintana. Nakita ko sya doon na nakasandal sa Raptor nya na kulay grey. Casual lang rin ang suot nya na para bang nasa bahay lang sya. Agad akong bumaba para puntahan sya. Ano ba kasing ginagawa nya dito?!

"Ginagawa mo kasi dito ng hatinggabi? Tapos hindi ka pa nag-text or tumawag man lang!" I rolled my eyes at him. Hindi ko naman kasalanan na hindi sya nagsabi na pupunta sya, e!

"Whatever." He just shrugged his shoulders like it was nothing. "I'm here to give you this," he handed me a paper bag that has the logo of their restaurant. "Sebastian ordered some and told me to deliver it to you. He should double the pay! It's midnight already plus he commanded me to deliver it." He said like he was pissed.