love me. - guy germaine

part 6

i arrived home and decided to just go to sleep, i didn't want to wake my mom either. I went very quietly to my room, on the stairs, down the dark corridor, sneaking up to my room. when I finally got there I threw myself on my bed. I grabbed my diary from under my bed and started writing something in it.all my secrets are in that book, all my feelings.when i was done i put my diary back under my bed and took my phone which was lying next to me on the bed. I looked at the messages I had received. two new chats? I looked to see who it was.

guy :) and anonymous..

first i clicked on guy's

guy :)

hi y/n, i am having so much fun with you these days and i just wanted to thank you for that cause things between connie and me are getting complicated and you are helping me through. <3

me

oh guy i'm so sorry things are turning out this way between you and connie but know that you are never alone. everyone is here for you!! <3 i am having fun with you too :)

*end of chat*

ok now i'm curious. from who is that anonymous message?

anonymous 

hey y/n, it's me connie i have a new phone!! also i wanted to make things up with you because i have been so mean to you and you don't deserve it. so tomorrow i'll be at your house at 3 <3 hope you can forgive me.

me

oh hi connie, ofcourse i forgive you. i've always want to be friends with you. see you tomorrow!!

*end of chat*

now this felt strange

nah i'm probably exaggerating..

I'm going to sleep now because tomorrow is an early day!!

and with that i fell asleep.

we all had to go to school. our tutor did this to us, she was going to teach us things."ancient greece was the beginning of western civilization. see, in greece they had no professional sports or wheaties boxes. so the athletes competed for another reason. anybody?" our tutor says "falafels?" is what i hear goldberg say and that made me laugh "you wish goldberg" connie says and that made me look at her. it made me remember what she said yesterday but then charlie raised his hand

 "charlie?" said miss mackay and his answer was "pride" she shook her head yes and said "that's right they wear house clothes from home with pride"

fulton asked a question "did america always dominate?" "fulton" is what jesse said in answer to his questionour tutor explained it all to him."america is a teenager just like you""like us?" i asked"you bet" she said

and then we had to go skating but bombay started singing. and he can't sing believe me"i don't know what i been told" "i don't know what i been told" the whole group sang behind him but not meI did not want to.I heard something about winning and gold but then I didn't listen at all

now we had another game that was added I didn't listen at all to the explanation of the match because in the first part I wasn't allowed on it anyway."6-0 for usa" i felt someone give me a little push, i looked at that person and saw luis. "are you okay? you're acting weird" he asked "yes i'm okay thanks for asking tho" i said while giving him a small smile. he gave me a nod and we both looked back at the game.then we heard someone say something from the audience"yes give more high fives, my little brother is doing better himself" he says to us and jesse immediately replied with "well why don't you go bother him then?" but that boy started laughing "haha i don't even have a little brother" i wanted to say something but heard coach jesse and stop me "jesse, y/n on the ice. show me you want it guys" and then that boy said behind him "yeah show me you want it guys" our coach looked at him and the boy started to smile and said "okay" and left i had the puck and it almost went into the goal until there was a person from the other team tripped me 

"BRO I ALMOST HAD IT" I get up but I fell on my knee and it hurted a lot "FACE OFF" I hear the referee say but I didn't feel like playing anymore and I also had once hurt, I wanted to get out of here. so i went to the guy that made me fall and said "hey whats your problem man" and i push him i hear my team say "y/n no don't do it" and then i hear coach "y/n forget about it" then i feel someone pull me by the arm and put me in the box and said "you. two minutes"  then i hear the speaker say "y/n y/l/n has been put in the box for two minutes "I rolled my eyes at it. in the end we won. we actually had to go to an interview but I told coach that I felt sick so that I could skip. I wanted to see how my knee was doing

I looked at my knee and saw that it was a very wound. it looked terrible, also with a lot of blood. I carefully stepped to the bathroom to disinfect it but I had to step really slow otherwise it hurt then I came to the bathroom and went inside. I opened the closet and grabbed the things I needed. with that I disinfected my wound.for the people who want to know how it was with connie, it has been resisted. she apparently didn't know we had a game today but she says it's still going to happen. 

and then i fell asleep 

"a new day, a new game" i hear my roommate jesse say "stfu please i'm trying to sleep" i replythe next thing i know is i'm being pulled out of bed and guess what? I landed on my knee as a reflex I yell in pain "yo y/n are you okay? what's up with you?" jesse asks me" If I tell you this will you promise me you won't tell anyone?" he nods at me"Yesterday when I fell I landed on my knee and it looks bad" I explain to him"oh come on it can't be that bad. show me" he says"are you sure about that?" I say as I show him my knee "Y/N THAT'S TERRIBLE" "You can't play like that, can you?""quiet jesse, nobody can know this or I won't be allowed to play for a long time" "a promise is a promise you weren't going to tell anyone" I say quickly "yes y/n" he says "now get ready and take all your hockey stuff" he says quietlya while later we arrive in the locker room and say hey to everyone.  afterwards we all change into our hockey clothes.