love me. - guy germaine

part 21

a letter with my name on it? how does this get in here? I took the letter and opened it carefully, whose is this? I took out the letter and opened it, I started reading it...

"hi y/n, 

 it's me jesse :)

you're probably wondering how this letter ended up in your suitcase and that's all thanks to your mother, I asked her to put this letter in your suitcase because I knew for a while that I was not allowed to go there; I also don't want you to think I didn't want to because I really wanted to go but my parents won't let me go. I would much rather have been there with you, have fun, play hockey, be there with all my group of friends and meet many more people. you must be reading this on your first day there so let me know how it was, do you have any friends? is it as cool as you hoped? did you have a lot of fun? I have so many questions to ask so call when you have time. now what i want you to do is kinda forget about me because this is going to stay in your mind, i know you y/n and that's not meant to be. I want you to have fun and I don't care if I'm there or not. you mean a lot to me y/n so find out who you really are, find the love of your life (if guy isn't the one but he probably is), make lots of friends, have a lot of fun in hockey (I will always watch your games and will be your number one supporter), go to parties and above all be yourself because that's why I love you. and by forgetting me I mean I'm not on your mind when you're doing something fun or when you're doing something we used to do together. I wish you the best and I mean this sincerely, from my heart. I hope we keep in touch, a friend like you there are not many of them. you are special, beautiful and most of all you are nice to everyone. don't forget to put yourself above others, sometimes you have to, dare to say no (don't say yes to everything), you also need free time to have fun. don't stay in your room forever there ;) go on an adventure in your life, I will do it too, together we will do it. I hope you have a nice room and I expect to be forwarded a room tour. I hope we see each other again soon, I love you with all my heart and I am your favorite supporter <3 Say hi to everyone else ;) and you better send a letter back"

this boy is gonna make me cry so bad. when i started reading the letter, i felt tears in my eyes, i'm not emotional, but he's my best friend after all. i'll write a letter back to him as soon as possible. I did not expect to receive this letter from him. when did my mom and he plan this? I wonder now. I will ask in the next letter I am going to write.

 should i go to guy? I haven't seen his room either and I'm bored right now. I step out of my room and close the door. i step up to guy's room, which wasn't far, just the room next to mine. I knocked on the door waiting for it to open. a few seconds the door flew open and I immediately got a "hey" from guy. "hi guy can i come in?" I asked with a smile on my face. "yeah sure come in" he told me as he got out of the way so i could come in "thank you" i said. "What are you actually doing here if I may ask? Or do you not know yourself?" guy asked me when I sat down on his bed "I wanted to come and see you and your room" I said to the boy standing in front of me "oh okay that's cool" he said. he sat down next to me and looked at me "do you like it here yet?" i asked him "yes and you? i saw you talking to a blond girl before who is she? she looks mean" he told me "oh mindy?" i asked "uh? i don't know her name" he said "you must be talking about mindy" i said "i think so"

"but she's really not mean, at first i thought she was mean too until she was suddenly talking to me and she's really sweet, i have her number and stuff" i explained to him "oh okay if you say so" he replied "yes" 

"when can we actually play hockey for the first time here?" I asked after a silence "uh I think the day after tomorrow? or tomorrow? something like that" he said laughing "so you don't really know?" I asked him with a smile "yes no I don't really know" I was laughing super hard at the moment, guy started laughing too "I'm curious who that new coach will be" I said "yes his name is coach Orion or something?" he told me "sounds like coach onion, that's his nickname for me" guy looked at me weird "onion? seriously?" he laughed again "yes onion that sounds and his name reminds me of that so let me do it" I said to him. we talked about it some more and more and more

at this point it was just quiet. I didn't know what to do so I decided to give him a long, soft and warm hug. the hug lasted a long time. it was still going on, i felt safe in his arms. his hands were around my waist and mine around his neck. just giving someone a hug really feels good, it feels good and safe. I think this is the longest hug I've ever given and received from anyone. minutes later the hug stopped "that was a long hug" i said "yes i loved it" he started "should we do more" he continued "yes sure i loved it too" i gave him a smile "I'm tired" I told him. "go rest then" he said to me "but it's afternoon that's super weird" i said "should I come lie with you?" he asked me "then we can rest together. honestly i'm tired too" he continued. he lay down on his bed and signaled for me to join it.

 I lay down next to him and laid my head on his chest while his head rested on mine.