love me. - guy germaine

part 24

so about that revenge, i don't think i'm going to do it, i've been thinking about it tonight and i'm not like that. I'll just see what comes my way and we'll see thenfor now i'm going to try to talk to someone from the team, probably all the team together but first i have to find them and i have to find adam too, to ask if he wants to come with me. I walked out of my room and stepped to the other side of the hall, where Adam's room was. I knocked on the door and saw the door open gently. "oh hey y/n what's up?" adam said when he saw me "i'm here to ask you something" i told him "yes?" he gave me a questioning look "I plan to try and talk to the team, do you want to come with me?" I asked him "um I don't know?" he wondered if it was a good idea "i think i'm going to skip this one sorry y/n" he started "good luck" he continued "it's okay don't worry" i said as i started to step downstairs. we waved quickly to each other. when I arrived downstairs something immediately struck me, they were on the spot where we always sit, easy for me to sit with. i went to them and immediately said "hey guys" but got no answer "guys?" I asked again and now they took turns looking at me. "what do you want y/n?" charlie rudely told me "I just wanted to ask why you guys are acting like this to adam and me? we didn't even choose this" I explained. there were so many eyes on me, it felt uncomfortable. "why do you think" charlie said rolling eyes "i don't know and that's why i come to ask you" i sighed and waited for an answer

 "listen not everyone likes you and you have to accept that, i never found you nice and i'm sure many on this team think the same about you.. maybe it's time for a change. you really seriously think everyone liked you? shame on you. you're so full of yourself, you think you are everything when you are literally nothing-" I was in shock and heard Charlie wanted to talk some more but he was interrupted? "hey! don't talk to her like that" i turned and saw adam standing "first of all, y/n don't think she's everything because all she wants is for you to be happy. i can't even name one moment where she did anything for herself she'll do anything for you and you're going to treat her like that that's messed up i thought we were all friends but this clearly says something else y/n stands up for you and you so many times don't even stand up for her? guy you're her boyfriend what are you doing man?" 

i felt guy look back at me. but i did not look at him, I'm disappointed and all I want to do now is run away. but i can't because everyone will think i'm weak. but these words keep repeating in my head. it's not stopping.

"thanks adam but i just realized i have something to do in my room so i have to go" i said quickly as i turned and ran upstairs. I heard Adam yell something to the team but didn't hear exactly what, what I did hear were footsteps running behind me. i was confused and when i stopped at my door i heard that person standing behind me. i turned around and saw guy. i felt relieved and immediately said "oh guy i'm so glad you're here" i wanted to give him a hug but he stopped me, i looked at him confused "guy?" I asked. he looked like he had seen a ghost, his mouth open and his eyes wide open "I'm breaking up with you" came out of his mouth "what? why?" I immediately asked while tears came to my eyes "I just heard what you did downstairs and I really didn't expect this" he started. he grabbed my shoulders making me look him in the eye "never talk to me again" he continued. he let go of me and stepped back. I wanted to say something else but it was too late, he disappeared in a snap.

tears were overflowing from the moment I stepped into my room, I slammed the door and plopped myself on my bed. how can all this happen? Why? I realized I had hockey in an hour, I wanted to skip but I don't even know the team yet so now I just have to be strong. I stood up and went to the bathroom, sobbing. i looked at myself in the mirror who am i? I wiped my smeared mascara. I grabbed my hockey gear and got out of my room, slammed the door and stepped downstairs. i wanted to be early since i'm probably one of the only girls there at varsity and i feel a little safer if i can change before all those guys. i entered my locker room and saw coach orion standing there "oh hey coach" i said making him look at me "hello" i got back "what are you doing here?" I asked him curiously "I'm looking for something" he replied "and you?" he continued asking "I wanted to be early at my first practice" he nodded at me "how are you doing? you don't look very well" he told me "oh i'm just having a bad day nothing else" i explained out, lying. he came up to me and sat next to me "and now tell me what's really there" he said and that made me sigh "everyone from the old team has been acting so bad at me since i'm on varsity now and guy has it broke up with me too, I can never talk to them all again" coach gave me a weird look "and you're worried about that? think about yourself, about how you are really doing and whether everything is really okay y/ n" he told me "yea, thank you coach" I gave him a smile

"i have to go now, good luck with practice y/n" he told me "thank you coach" i said. he left the locker room.