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Chapter 7

TRIGGER WARNING

My eyes fluttered open and I was instantly blinded by bright, white lights.
Uhhh, so bright I tried to move my arm to cover my eyes instead I winced in pain and everything came rushing back. Addison, the pills, the pool of blood and Amelia.
Fuck Amelia, I need to call her
I rolled over to try and find my phone but instead i was greeted with the sight of a sleeping Amelia.
"Amelia, wake up" I whisper yelled to her
She shifty slightly and her eyes opened
"Oh thankgod your awake, I was just thinking I should pour some cold water on you." We both giggled slightly at that.
"I'm so so sorry Amelia, I- I didn't know what els-" I started crying
"Hey it's okay, your okay now" she crawled into the small hospital bed and stroked my hair
"What hospital are we at"
"Seattle west hospital. Apparently you told the paramedics not to take you to grey Sloan right before you passed out"
"Of course I did, we should probably tell someone I'm awake."
"Yea, I'll go get a nurse"
I got checked over by the doctor and I just had to wait for a psychiatrist to come talk to me. Amelia and I talked for an hour before the psychiatrist came into my room, Amelia left to go get food so the doctor and I could talk.

"So Sophie I am doctor jones and from my understanding you are here because you attempted to end your life."
"Yep"
"Alright, Do you have any siblings"
"Dead brother"
"What about your parents"
"Jail"
"Are you dating anyone"
"I was. She cheated"
"That sounds like a lot to deal with"
"Yep"
"Okay Sophie, I'm going to be honest, if you want to leave here, your going to have to give more some information and not such short answers. So what would you like to talk about"
I didn't know what to say.
"Aren't you like supposed to ask me a heap of questions and Im supposed to answer them and then you leave and tell the doctor wether I'm allowed to leave or not."
"That's what most psychiatrists do, but I get a feeling you don't like that."
"Not really, no. I hate it because everyone in my life walks on eggshells around me and all they talk to me about is my mental health and it's like they aren't really talking to me at all."
I took a breath before I spoke
"Can we talk about my brother, if thats okay"
"Of course"
I sat there for an hour talking about tommy, my childhood, parents, work, my little trip to Budapest, Addison and why I tried to kill myself. I really liked this doctor, he actually listened to me and just let me talk without asking a billion questions.
"Okay Sophie, if you feel comfortable with my decision, I'm going to say you are allowed to go home as long as we see each other 3 times a week for 2 months and then we will re-evaluate then. How does that sound"
"Sounds like a plan. But what about work."
"You can go back to work whenever you feel ready."
"Awesome, so I can go home now"
"Yes, I'll get a nurse to bring you the discharge paper. Would you like me to let Amelia know she can come back in."
"Yes please and uh doctor jones"
"Yes Sophie"
"Thank you" I gave him a smile which he returned And he left.

A nurse came in and gave my the paperwork. I signed it and got changed into the clothes Amelia packed for me.
"So you ready to go"
"Yea. But um where I'm living"
"You can stay with me or go back to your apartment"
"Won't Addison still be there" I got a little nervous thinking about her.
"I don't know, come stay with tonight and we can sort it out tomorrow"
With that we left the hospital and made the trip to Amelia's house.

We pulled in Amelia's driveway and there was Addison sitting on her front steps
"What the fuck is she doing"
"I uh actually don't know"
"Don't lie, did you call her Amelia"
"Of course not, i'm pissed off with her too Sophie"
I could tell she was telling the truth, but it still didn't help me decide what to do. I hadn't even notice the tears rolling down my face until Amelia spoke
"I can get rid of her if you want" I started to cry harder and hyperventilate.
Amelia took this as her answer. I don't know how much time past but next thing I knew Amelia was helping me out of the car and inside the house.
I walked over to the couch and curled up in ball and just cried. Amelia came over lifted my head onto her lap and played with my hair until I fell asleep.

Next day
I got up and had a quick shower then got dressed for work. As I was getting ready I got the urge to cut, i pulled out my blade and made 4 fresh cuts along my thigh. I cleaned and bandage them before exiting the bathroom.
"morning Amelia." I walked over to make myself a coffee
"Your going to work?"
"Yea, sitting around all day is only going to make things worse."
"Fair enough, need a ride?"
"Sure"
The ride to work was silent, which didn't bother me, I was too nervous about seeing Addison to make small talk. We arrived at the hospital, Amelia and I parted ways, making a plan to meet when we get off work. I waved goodbye and headed to the attending's lounge.
"Sophie your back" I was engulfed in a hug from Jo
This made me laugh "I missed you too Jo"
"How have you been, you fell off the face of the earth for awhile"
"Amelia and I took a trip, I needed to time to think."
"You spent your whole trip thinking" she raised her eyebrows at me
"Well I didn't spend the entire time thinking, there was some partying involved."
"I'm sad I missed out" she pouted at me
"I'll make it up to you, we can hang tonight"
"Ooooo sounds like a plan" she danced around excited. "Wait what about Addison?"
"What about her" I gave a puzzled but nervous look
"I thought she would've been the first person you went to see."
We both sat down on the lounge. "I got home from my trip and when I walked inside our apartment, she was screwing Callie on the couch. Then had the nerve to say I'm sure you fucked another woman while you were gone"
"Oh I'm so sorry."
"Don't be, it's her loss."
We said goodbye and I made my way to Baileys office.
"Sophie Greyson, how have you been." She gave me a hug and we sat down at her desk.
"Well I disappeared for a while, came home and walked in on Addison having sex Callie, ended up in the hospital and now I'm here."
"Addison cheated" she looked genuinely shocked, guess no one knows... yet.
"Yea, but I'm seeing a good psychiatrist now, which you would know, but I'm okay."
"Yes, I have cleared your time off for your therapy sessions and made sure you won't be on call on those days."
"Thanks Bailey, I appreciate it"
"No problem, now you have a department to go run."
We said goodbye and I went to work.

Some stupid intern was on my service and almost killed patient. I spent the whole day cleaning up his messes. By the time my shift was over, I was exhausted. I met up with Amelia and Jo. Just as we were leaving I heard someone calling my name "Sophie, wait up"
I spun around "hey Arizona, what's up"
"I heard about you and Addison and I just wanted to say I'm sorry"
"Don't be sorry, you got cheated on to, do you wanna come hang out with us"
"That sounds good, yea"
We spent the night watching horror movies, eating popcorn and ice cream and ended up building a fort in the lounge. This was the most fun I had in years. We were curled up in the fort, watching some crappy horror movie when I got the urge to cut, I tried to ignore it but I couldn't. I excused myself to the bathroom and crawled out of the fort. I walked down the hall to the bathroom and locked the door. I got my blade and made another 4 cuts along my thigh, I cleaned and bandaged them and went back to the girls.
"We thought you drowned in the toilet, we were going to send a rescue team." Jo couldn't stop giggling.
"I take a long time to pee" I laughed it off but Amelia shot me a look, she knew exactly what I did but didn't bring it up which a mouthed her a thank you for.
I enjoyed the rest of the night and went to sleep with my three best friends, little did I know tomorrow was going to be hell and Addison would be the cause.