Meeting the Millers

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Today I feel a lot of things. Excitement being one of them, nervous being another, sad being the last. It's finally time for me to go home and I feel extremely weird for even saying that. Honestly I didn't think I'd make it this far but I did. And I guess I have Serenity to thank for that, she was one of the ladies working here to help us get better, she's helped me as a person in many different ways too. I remember when I first came here, I wasn't trying at all and she asked me 'why do you put yourself through this?' So obviously I said 'Because I feel like shit', now you always expect people to say things like 'No your not shit, your beautiful' and blah blah blah, Serenity's answer was way different, she said 'The only reason you feel like shit is because you let yourself feel like shit' I still remember that comment till this day-

"Carmen!"

I close my notebook before looking up and smiling, "Hey"

Meghan runs towards me before giving me a hug, "You're back"

Jack, Kayla, Mia and Jada walk in shortly. "Wait does this mean your being re admitted?" Kayla asks

I stand up. "No actually, this is a short visit"

Mia frowns, "How come?"

"I came to say goodbye to you guys" I say softly

Meghan frowns, "You're leaving?"

I nod, "I'm going back home today"

"Wait for real?" Jack says surprised

"Yeah I just didn't want to leave without saying goodbye"

"She hasn't got a lot of time you guys" Serenity says

Jada hugs me first, "We'll miss you" She murmurs

"And I'll miss you guys too"

I then lift up Meghan into a hug, holding her tightly and she laughs as she hugs me back. Where do I even start with my precious Megs, throughput the time that I spent here we've had a mother and daughter relationship. "Will you come back to see us?"

I put her down, "Of course I will"

I then crouch down before hugging Mia last, she's seated on the couch. "I'll see you later tubeaphone"

I gave her that nickname because of the tube connected to her nose

She smiles, "Bye Carmen"

And then lastly.... There was Jack. "Why don't we all help set up the table" Serenity suddenly suggests

"Good idea" Kayla replies

Meghan giggles before following everyone else out of the room and I roll my eyes, "So.... Is this the last that I'll hear from you Rodriguez?" Jack finally asks

"I guess that will stay a mystery"

"I'd say text me but it's not like we're allowed our phones"

"Ugh, another reason I'm grateful to be leaving this place" I joke

He smiles a little, "Try not to relapse"

"You can't say that!" Mia calls out from the other room

I snort, "I'll do my best" I reply to his comment

"Good"

Jack, where do I even start? He was my first friend when I got here, he's also got anorexia but he was always much more positive about it than I was. We got along pretty well, and I think he ended up having a crush on me..... I don't know how I felt towards him, we didn't pursue it and even if we wanted to we couldn't.