My psycho side

Thinking about her

Clark's POV

               "Well since someone here was so generous to prepare us a meal, I think we can handle the rest." Nel says and he looks at me so I can back him up.

                 "Oh yeah, leave the rest to the men."

                "What men? Cass has to join us too you know. She did nothing except eat." Nel argues and Cass sticks out her tongue.

                "I have to give our guest company, right Maya?" We all turn our heads waiting for her reply. She just nods her head while Cass claps her hands since she has been saved from doing chores. Something she has hated since she was a child.

                 "Come, let me show you around." Cass pulls Maya towards her but before they leave, I ask Maya a question.

                 "Maya, you didn't venture through the house when I left you earlier?" I frown my brows and look her straight in the eyes.

                 "No I didn't. I thought that would be rude." She replies curtly. Wow, many people would have roamed this house to their satisfaction but she, she's different. So different.

   Cass pulls her out and they disappear. Nel just stands there staring at me, arms folded.

                   "What?" I walk past him in to the kitchen and start doing the dishes. He comes in too and stands next to me helping with the dishes. I wash as he rinses and hangs them to the rack.

                 "I was just observing you and Maya. I wonder how we never met her even when we were close to mommy Immy." Now that he mentioned it, I also wonder. Not once did we see Maya when she was little. Mommy Immy never introduced us to her or her to us.

                  "Maybe she just didn't want us knowing about her or perhaps because she was scared you would do something to her. You were and still are so stubborn."

                "Oh really now? Tell me who between us can't stop thinking about her? Who wants to know everything that has happened to her? Who doesn't want her to go back to Jeff and wants her all to himself? I think Mommy Immy was protecting her from you and not me."

   That stupid smirk is back up his lips and he just continues doing the dishes. Yes, I don't want her to go back to Jeff but it's only because he hurt her and that's it.

                "Are you sure that's it?" Nel's voice pulls me back to reality.

               "Fuck, can you read my mind or something?"

              "That's just how well I know you. Anyway, let's hurry up here. I still have to speak to Rita and find out what happened." I nod and we finish up within a short period of time.

              "Hey Cass, Miss Mysterious, I am heading out." Nel shouts through the hallway to get the girls' attention and soon they come from the garden.

              "So soon?"

              "Why? Are you planning to kill me and hide my corpse in your closet Cass?"

             "Oh come on, you know I wouldn't do that." She replies innocently and blinks her eyes repeatedly.

             "Of course you wouldn't. You can't even as much as make a good cup of coffee." We all laugh and Cass hits Nel's arm.

             "Okay, okay, enough now. I have to get to Rita before she cuts my legs off." He gives Cass a hug and a kiss to the forehead like he always has.

             "Wait, can I ask which Rita you are talking about?" Maya asks before he walks to her and stands just a few inches from her.

             "Rita Orlando."

             "Could you maybe bring her here so we could talk if it's not..."

              "Don't worry future sister in law, your wish is my command. Nice meeting you again, Maya." He gives her a hug which she returns.

              "Thanks Walker." He smiles then leaves without looking my way. I will get him. How dare he call her his sister in law when I clearly told him I don't have feelings for her. Cass yawns and I see the tired lines on her face.

               "Go to bed Cassandra." Maya says and Cass just nods her head. She kisses the both of us goodnight and goes upstairs to her room.

   Now only me and Maya are left down stairs. Finally, some peace. Maya stands awkwardly in front of me and I can't withdraw my eyes from her even when I know it's making her uncomfortable. After a good fight in my mind, I am able to look away from her.

              "H...have you seen the house? I mean did Cass show you everywhere?" I finally am able to get my mind and mouth to work together. Damn, I have never been this nervous speaking to a girl.

              "Yes, she did. You have a beautiful house by the way."

              "Do you mind sitting with me in the living room?" She doesn't answer but just walks towards the living room and takes a seat. I guess that's a 'no I don't mind'. I follow her and take a seat just next to her, leaving very little room between us. She doesn't seem to mind though so I stay put.

             "This is our first home. Cass and I usually come stay over here for two months of every year. Especially this month because it's the month we lost our mom." I say after a while. Maya holds my hand in hers. Her hand is cold against my warm skin but it gives me comfort.

             "I am sorry for what happened."

              "It's okay. It wasn't your fault and besides Cass and I have each other." That's the thing I am grateful for actually. I am grateful for Cass, my little annoying sister.

             "It's great how you two love each other. I am happy I got to witness that." She laughs and that laughter pulls me out of the darkness that almost swallowed me up. We soon get in to a conversation about me and Cass and in between she keeps laughing which makes my heart melt. It's like I want her to always be like this. Always smiling and laughing.

   We like talk for about three hours before I realize Maya's pale skin.

               "Are you ok?" I move my hand to her back and pull closer to her. Her body seems to be hot. She has a fever.

                "I just have a headache. I will be fine."

                "No, you need to see a doctor. First thing tomorrow morning we are going to the hospital."

                "We?"

              "Yes, we." I stand up and pull her up with me guiding her to her room so she can rest. I lie her down on the bed and out of instinct, I kiss her forehead.

             "I...I...I am sorry. I am just so used to doing that to Cass when I put her to bed."

            "It's fine, don't worry." I turn the lights off on my way out and shut the door. My mind just keeps replaying the kiss over and over and I smile. That felt good. It felt like it was something I was already used to doing. I walk up my room and take a hot shower then lie on the bed. I can't sleep. One hour, two hours, three hours and I still lay wide awake on the bed. I just kept thinking about Maya's laughter, her smile, her lips, her cold hands, her smell of vanilla. How close I was to her this morning I almost couldn't resist kissing her. All that got me up in the early morning having a cold shower.