Madter Arc 1: Flood

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I was sitting in bed just wandering through my mind as I have the door shut so no one would bother me. I don't know how long I've sat here since time isn't important right now. I just wish Nomad would come back so I can talk to him. I hate that he's been getting rather upset lately, and I feel like it's my fault that I'm the one who is making him upset...

The door suddenly opens, and I quickly look over at it, hoping that it's Nomad, but it was actually Storm. I end up looking away with slight disappointment.

"Expecting someone else?" Storm asks as she comes over to my bunk, and sits on the edge of my bed.

"I was hoping you would be Nomad," I say.

"I already know what happened between you two," Storm says, and I look over at her with a puzzled look. "Nomad told me everything."

"I don't know what to do at this point, Storm. I feel like anything I say it just hurts him, and I don't want to hurt him anymore, I never wanted to hurt him," I say after I look away.

"I know, and these are some difficult times for Nomad. He doesn't quite understand things and that's why he's been getting upset because he's uneducated and doesn't fully know our ways. I know you're trying really hard not to upset him, but you just have to be patient with him," Storm says, and of course, she would know what's going on.

"Did he ask anything about my past?" I ask.

"No, but I did have to explain a couple of things about Butas, just not anything relating to you," Storm answers.

"Okay... I sort of did... snap at him earlier..." I say in a low tone.

"I know, he told me that you did get a little angry, and I had to explain to him that you're going through a hard time too with your adjustment and having to deal with a lot of things," Storm says as she gently grabs my arm.

"But, it's what he said earlier that really hurts..."

"What did he say? He only told me about the job and what happened, he didn't mention anything about when you guys got back," Storm says.

"I'm surprised he didn't tell you, but I guess it's hard for him to accept that I decided to be fused to my clone because of him. He thinks I'm suffering and he's blaming himself for it to put it that way from what he said."

"Huh... I mean... You're not suffering, are you?" Storm asks, and I can tell she was getting a little worried.

"No, not at all. I just don't want Nomad to know the things I've done in the past. He wouldn't want anything to do with me if he knew."

"Okay. I just really hate for you to suffer greatly from a choice you've made. I would feel terrible knowing that I've put you through that because you know I care about each and every one of you."

"I know, Storm, and I wouldn't blame you for anything because it's not your fault, it's the war's fault."

"Yeah... War makes you do a lot of horrible things. It forces you to make choices that you're never happy with and you end up living with them for the rest of your life. I know that from a lot of experience. I really do hate having to drag all of you with me. If I could, I would fight this war alone so no one would have to suffer."

"If it wasn't for you, Storm, I don't know where I'll be in my life. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have met any of these people. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have such a big family."

"I know. Who knows where our paths would go if it wasn't for me. If only we didn't have to meet because of a war."

"But at least we're strong together."