"Boyfrenemies" Vol. 2

twenty eight

TWEEK'S POV

if it wasn't abundantly clear that craig has moved on from me and has retreated back to annie from yesterday, then it was crystal clear today.

i could see them from my locker, subtly looking so i wouldn't look like a creep, giggling and just....speaking normally.

which is so odd since every time they spoke to each other since i have been here, it's been screaming matches and profanities thrown at one another.

and now they're acting close...and civil.

and it's terrible, i can't stand to see it.

i'm hurt....and i shouldn't be. i guess i am just shocked it happened so quickly, but that must have been what he thought seeing me with chris immediately after we broke up.

at least he doesn't have to see chris and i in the flesh like i see he and annie.

i avert my gaze into inside my locker and take a deep breath to come to my senses and trying not to go completely insane.

closing my eyes will make it go away for sometime and i will gladly do that if it means i won't have to see it for a second longer.

my internal healing is interrupted by someone clearing their throat behind me and i open my eyes turning around to come face-to-face with nichole.

"hey," she says looking sad.

"h-hi," i say quietly looking down at my feet to avoid her eyes.

"so...yesterday," she says awkwardly trying to start a conversation.

"l-let's just act like it d-didn't happen," i say just wanting to move on from it, "w-we're clearly b-both sorry and was j-just frustrated."

nichole just stares for a moment and then nods, "i agree...i am really sorry tweek you know i'd never say anything like that to you legitimately meaning it."

i just smile, "i-i know. so let's just l-leave it in the p-past, okay?"

nichole nods, "okay. how are you?"

i close my locker and start walking to class as the warning bell rang, "g-good."

nichole looks at me unconvinced and that's all i needed to know she wasn't buying that, "....b-bad."

"thought so," she says, "we can talk about it at lunch today....hoping we're still lunch buddies that is."

my head whips around so quickly i could've broken it, "as if we a-aren't. we c-could be giving each other t-the silent treatment and w-we'd still be s-sitting at each other f-for lunchtime i-in complete s-silence."

nichole laughs, "you're not wrong."

during class i couldn't help but glance at craig every so often.

i just want him to acknowledge my existence and see that i am here.

usually, our eyes would meet but his eyes never met mine.

not even once.

every time his eyes wouldn't meet mine my heart would sink even more.

why are you surprised? he's moved on. you're worthless and this whole thing is your fault.

"u-ugh," i groan quietly not even paying attention to the lesson because i'm fighting my inner conscience.

"tweek is there a problem?" our teacher, mrs. nelson says to me interrupting my thoughts.

great, just great. i just love getting signaled out in class! just what i wanted.

"n-no there's no problem," i choke out. yes there is but it doesn't concern this class at all.

"okay....so for this assignment you guys are going to partner up," mrs. nelson continues and i perk up at that.

partners.....maybe just maybe if craig and i can partner up that would solve everything.

i look at him almost desperately it probably looked so pathetic, only for him to once again not meet my gaze.

"i am trusting you guys to pick appropriate partners and work with them as a team and not letting one do the work while the other sits on their butt and eat chips," mrs. nelson says looking directly at eric cartman who chokes on the chip he was eating.

"alright you may go and choose your partners...quietly and quickly." and everyone scatters to find their desired partner.

my desired partner picked someone who i knew he was going to pick but was in denial that it would truly happen.

he picked annie.

they were both all smiles and started talking immediately about the project.

and i sat at my desk, have not moved an inch not wanting to move at all.

i stared down at my shoes looking like a complete loser for a few moments for someone to tap my shoulder and i look up to find a kenny mccormick standing there, "partners?"

i have probably only spoken 3 words to him ever since i moved here but it's better than no one and wallowing in my sadness, "s-sure."

*later at lunch*

"you're partners with kenny?!" nichole says surprised, "i didn't even notice i immediately went to tolkien."

trying to hide my jealousy that she could just partner with her boyfriend, i just laugh it off, "y-yeah. we've barely spoken but he's c-cool."

"well he's better than being alone with no one right?" nichole says but then her eyes grow wide immediately regretting what she said.

i just look at her sadly for a moment, "n-nichole...i have never felt m-more alone and i-isolated ever in my l-life."

she looks and me from across the table and decides to move and sit next to me, rubbing my back and giving me moral support.

i start to tear up, "it's alright just tell me," nichole encourages.

"a-and it's stupid b-because i did this. i c-created this mess and i-i shouldn't be upset that he's m-moved on and done w-with me," i say and her hand pauses for a moment and then continues to rub gently.

"i...don't think he's moved on," she says.

i look at her with tears in my eyes, "c-clearly he has. they a-are so close n-now and he's a-all flirty with h-her and shit."

"it's okay to feel what you feel but i am telling you how i feel and you can take it or leave it," nichole says sternly looking at me, "he loves you with everything that he has. he's willing to go the extra mile for you and you know that. he's not gonna throw that all away for...annie."

i couldn't help but laugh at the way she said annie's name, it's awful that it made me feel better.

i sniff and wipe my tears, "g-god it's p-pathetic right? sitting in the m-middle of the c-cafeteria crying over a b-boy."

she looks at me sympathetically, "you can't help it, you love him."

i stop sniffing and nod, "yes, i l-love him."

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