What's A Snake Without Its Venom - (S͜͡p͜͡o͜͡t͜͡ C͜͡o͜͡n͜͡l͜͡o͜͡n͜͡ ) Love Story

Ch. 19 ~ Flipped On a Dime

"Who's they Spot?" I ask on our way back from the library.

He freezes and swallows slowly, "No one doll" He gives me that fake "doctor smile" and tries to keep walking. I pull him back with our fingers intertwined.

"Spot, who told you all those things?" I ask again, calmer. I don't want to pressure him.

"Mr. Reeves. He said he didn't want my juvenile behavior to affect one of his best students. He put me in this room at school and hit me until I swore I wouldn't talk to you" He lets my hand go.

"Listen doll, I love you but if he sees us together, he might hurt you and me. I wouldn't be able to live in my body if my selfishness did that to you. I had fun today but until the school year is over I think we should keep our distance. At least in public" He tried to compromise. No

NO!

I lost him once and I would kill anyone who wants me to loose him again!

"No Spot! I don't care about Mr. Reeves. I don't care about this stupid school. They can kick me out for all I care! I don't want to pretend you are just a stranger. You are so much more than some acquaintance I used to know! You are my rock, my savior, my boyfriend, my-" I get interrupted by Spot.

"Your what?" He asks, confused

"I'm sorry it just came out I mean-" I am cut off once again, but this time by Spot's lips crashing onto mine. So much passion and pain flows through the kiss that starts to evolve into pure lust.

"Screw this school, you're mine" he says in a husky, "sleepy" voice.

He picks me up by my ass and that's when things get

Interesting...

He carries me all the way up the stairs, down the hall to his room where he throws me down on the bed. He stares over me like a predictor about to dig into its prey when I just have the urge to cry

Jasper

I sit up and curl into a ball, shaking, crying, internally screaming for ruining the moment with my trauma.

Spot's demeanor flipped on a dime. He went from "You're about to scream for me" to "I'm here for you, it'll all be ok"

"What's wrong doll?" He asks reaching his hand over my shoulder. I curl even further at the touch and he immediately steps away. The last thing I want him to do is leave right now.

These past few months have been really hard on me. I cycle through uncontrollable crying, completely numb, and fake smiling through the day. The only day in the past eight months I felt like me again is when me and Spot were talking in the library. I feel horrible for making him sit through one of my crying fits but I can't control it.

Jasper ruined my life! Every man I see I just want to run away from. I lay awake at night, wondering what he could of possibly done to me that I would never know about. Every day I wake up and see the scratch marks all along my inner thigh and stomach. It makes me want to carve all my skin off and burn it.

I was finally getting where I wanted to be with the guy I love, but now, that opportunity has faded into the same abyss I crawl into every night as I attempt to sleep.

"Don't" I manage to croak out as Spot walks towards the door. He turns around, trying to leaving

"Go. Don't go" I say with the small amount of air that is entering my lungs

He inches closer and I cling onto his side, continuing to cry.

He just holds me and listens to me cry for a while. After about 10 minutes of non-stop crying, I was exhausted. I fall asleep in his arms, having the first dreamless sleep in 8 months...

A/n: HEHEHEHE MOTHER FUCKERS!!!! IM BACK AND YALL THOUGHT THIS WAS GONNA BE SMUT BUT I SLAPPED YOU WITH THAT ANGST INSTEAD!!! This is in fact a slow burn book that will end at around 30 chapters. ENJOY THE RIDE! but I promise there will be smut in this book don't worry dumbass ;) anywaysss... Hope you enjoyed the chapter, sry it's a little short but I think it speaks volumes. Don't forget to comment/vote!!! Don't forget to eat (i'm talking to you andrew!!!)/drink water (not g-fuel)/ and have a great rest of your day/night <3

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