Heather panicked a lot but not more then her twin sister Maddison did, Maddy felt as of she carried the whole wide world on her twig like shoulders. She always made sure that her siblings had more then she did, more rations and more clothes on their...
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|Maddison pov|
She hung her head in shame, atleast she tried to but he would not allow her head to fall back nor forward. "Maddison!"
"I went to Lubbock, t-they had a clinic there..." She trailed of her eyes watering with a fresh batch of tears, "Go on."
He was calmer then she expected but she could see that his temper it was just below the surface, "Okay! Okay, I-Iwent there with Jimmy." Maddison spat out in one breath, "You know how Jimmy had always been like a brother to me, way before Luke came into the picture and Jimmy got a girlfriend."
Ray watched the emotions on her face flicker from sad to happy and back to sad, "We went there and they did an echo, I could hear the sound of her heart beating like a bird flapping it's wings, in a beautiful rhythm, my nightingale."
Her eyes became clouded when she remembered the sound and the image that was imprinted in her head of the small bundle that was already three months, she couldn't go through with it when she had heard the first beats of the heart and the moving little girl in her womb.
"I left the clinic with Jimmy in silence, I-I knew that what I would be doing went against everything that I stand for, but in that moment being a fresh fifteen year old girl pregnant due to a one night stand was to much for me in that moment. I was already taking care of my sisters while our mother was wherever she got her drugs or was getting laid, so taking care of a newborn? It was nothing new, but it was all mine and that terrified me."
Ray's hand wove into her hair and massaged his fingers on her scalp relaxing her slightly in his hold, "I wish that I could tell you, that you should've told me and that I would've been there for you. But I know what kind of shit I have been when we were that age, and I can't tell you that, for I know. For I know, that I would've been an absolute asshole, and that's what you did not need back then."
His whispers moved a few strands of her hair, "What happened? D-did you, you know, go through with it?"
Maddison shook her head at him, "No, no. I-I, just couldn't."
It was silent between the two of them for a moment, "I gave birth to a healthy baby girl but my mother had the last word and had my beautiful baby ripped from my arms and into an unknown pair."
A silent sob passed her lips at the horror she relived every night when her child had been pulled away from her, it became one of the reasons why she never slept that much, and when she did it would've been short and fuzzy. "I know that I was young, but I could've taken care of her! I could've..."
Ray held her tightly his head resting on top of her own while hushing her softly, "She had no right. She is mine! But being a teenager gives you a disadvantage, back then I already took care of Heather and Lily, I would have been okay with taking care of my miniature me as well. But she decided to be 'responsible' and had the services take her away from me."
