Tainted Hearts (rewriting)

lost

"Elle!"

I jolted in my seat and felt my heart beat pick up. Eyes all around me started in confusion and curiosity. 

I had dazed out yet again during group this week, pretty sure everyone knew who I was by now. The girl who can't keep her head straight.

"Y-yes, I'm sorry what was the question?" I mumbled in embarrassment. 

"It's okay, how have you been this week? You seem to have a lot on your mind," She spoke again in a gentle tone. As if I was a rare and delicate feather she was trying in analyze with caution.

I looked up at her and opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out. I tried, I really did but my efforts were futile. I shook my head in frustration and dropped my gaze to my lap, causing my hair to shield my face like a curtain.

"It's okay Elle, there's no pressure. We're all here to listen when you're comfortable, let us help you."

My head shot up and the painful memories come pooling in. I said the same thing to him. I tried so hard to fix him and here I was trying to get fixed myself.

There's no happiness for me. Faith has already made sure if that. I've lost my mother, my sister, and now Daniel.

And I'm pretty sure I've lost myself as well.